YO!!!!! UPDATING AGAIN!! FINALLY!! hehe..

It's like 3 months since i typed here..

Like as if i always update like that.. haha..

Haiz.... last time.. it's about Kame!! now..

It's gonna be about.. My Birthday and Christmas!!
Although both ended days ago.. hehe..

I LOVE MY BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!! hehe..

Well on my birthday, I wanted to go watch Twilight..

BUT.. IN THE END CANCELED!! haiz..

i ended up at home wrapping christmas presents for little children!!

hehe.. it was worth it =) later.. I WENT TO SWENSENS!! hehe..

which is why the wrapping presents was worth it.. haha..

then.. went to arcade and played a few games before going home..
As for christmas.. WE HAD BBQ!! and it was awesome!!

hehe.. We went badminton at 3.. but i only played for a while..

And we all ended up snacking.. hehe..

everything was fun while it lasted..

AS FOR TODAY!!! I WENT TO K-GARDEN!!!

hehe.. like as if that's amazing.. since i'm practically the owner's kid..

haha.. and my father's business partner went there with her grandchild..

AND HE IS SO SO SO SO SO CUTE!!! hehe..

At first.. he was like so afraid then slowly he started talking..

then i carried him.. and he was like going.. DOG!! DOG!!

and since there was a pet shop beside, i brought him to see the dogs!!

And the doggies are cute!!! hehe..

later he got bored and i brought him back to k-garden..

then it was time for him to go home.. i felt sad.. haha..

then i passed him back to his maid..

but he was so sad and was practically clinging onto me..

so i carried him longer and passed him back..

then he started crying.. OMG!! then i carried him again..

and he finally calmed down and went home..

accepting his fate.. hehe.. someday i'll abduct him!!

MUAHAHAHAHA!! just joking..

later somebody come kill me then i die!!

THEN!!! I'm gonna talk about KAME!!!

hehe.. HE'S CUTE!!!!!! HE WAS ON TV TODAY!!

but i missed.. haiz.. he was playing baseball..

well.. sacrifices have to be made sometimes..

but still... I KNOW HE'S CUTE!! hehe..

going through all the old videos.. i found out...

he hasn't changed one bit!!! haha.. just the way I like him..

hehe.. okay lah.. enough of him.. i'm always talking about him..

now.. some pictures..

This.. is baby KAZUYA!! So cute!!

I'm jealous of that girl...My KATTUN notepad.. hehe..CHOCOLATE!!!! CRUNKY!! BEST IN THE WORLD!!
Last but not least.. Something I got for christmas..
To ALL people out there!! HAVE A WHITE CHRISTMAS!! (unless you're staying near the equator.. like me.. T.T)

Thinking about my turtle..

Gosh.. it's been a millenium since i posted here...

Hehe.. a bit random..

Everyday is just the same old thing..

All that I can think about in this life is him.. my turtle..

His smile is LOVE!! and more LOVE!!

He's so cute.. that time when he met usher, he spoke in english..

"Kamenashi is english turtle." that was just cute!
Then, this irritating guy knew that usher was there..

So he went in to disturb.. That guy was so irritating..

First he wanted an autograph..

Usher said okay, and my turtle was like..

"Wait a minute!! Even I don't even have it yet!!"

His expression was just priceless..

Later, that guy went out and usher said..

"Does he always do this?"

My turtle said

"Yeah.."
Then they continued their conversation..

Later, that irritating guy came in again and asked to take a picture..

Then usher said okay again..
My turtle was so shocked and he immediately replied..

"There's no one here to take picture except my pet turtle."

He's just so so so so so adorable!!

Later he got forced to take their picture..

The picture he took was like only of usher..

When I saw the picture, that irritating man was cut off..

Good job Kame!! He's just so CUTE!!

Later usher asked if that man was going to go in again..

"I don't know." His accent is precious!!

Now.. let's talk about doggies..

He wants a chihuahua .. although he has Ran-chan..

Because.. he loves doggies!! and he looks like the chihuahua..

So cute!! I'm going crazy about him and doggies..

Oh, and babies too!! I'll post a picture...

A picture of cute Kame!!

Carrying a cute baby!!

Your voice and smile

Even with this much true love
You continued to sing to me
I won't forget anything about you
Even if I was to be born again

I misunderstood
And thought I was living alone
I was offered warmth
But I made you sad, didn't I?

Although I tried to depend on you
Only when it was convenient
You were always my supporter
And you gave me your smile

I can't just talk about memories
The bond will never disappear
For eternity

Have I became your pride?
Although I was too embarassed to ask
That's what I have always wanted to be

A smile that melts the heart
There's nothing else that I would want to see more
For eternity

There's no love that can't extend
You kindly told me that
I will find your voice
Even if I was to be born again

It's not only the memories; our bond will never fade, for eternity

Always (A Song For Love)

There's something I want you to know
So you don't forget the pain of that other day
Hum this, in the cold wintery wind
A gentle melody that dwells in the sadness
Gather up all the fragments of dreams thoughout the world
I'm always thinking of you
Yes, so we'll always open our arms wide
Not so we can fight and injure others
Our arms will embrace someone
They're there to warm up other people
I want you to remember
Even on the nights when snowflakes dance down
Thousands of sentiments
Shine on tomorrow's world, awaiting spring
Just be yourself, look up and see
I'm always thinking of you
No one can walk without feeling unsure
Keep dreaming, hold hands, smile
Yes, so we'll light a flame in our hearts
To undo the doors which have been frozen
Your eyes are a path to the future
They're there to give you somewhere to aim for
I've been waiting, I've been praying
For someone like you to come
I've been lying, self denying
Yes, so we'll always open our arms wide
To let our wishes reach to the heavens
Our arms were created
For us to hold onto our hopes and dreams
Here I go
I'm always thinking of you
Yes, I will always sing a song for love

Our Story ~ Prologue

I want to be feeling you just a little more like this
The wet wind that blew through the guardrail
I like over my right shoulder, you quietly
Wipe your wet cheek and stand up
Our story begins from here
Our story of tomorrow, each chapter
Our story, the two of us setting out
It’s not good-bye, that’s what I told myself
It was nonsense written on a blank page
But you colored it with your existence
The trace of the last kiss we left is hot
Your hand shakes, it’s only you that I’ve come to love
Our story, the one and only
A new story, let’s engrave it and go
Our story, even if we are separated
I’ll be embracing you in my memory
Wow, should we be able to do it
I’ll take you away with me…I’m sorry
I’ll come get you without fail
Our story begins from here
Our story of tomorrow, don’t look back
I won’t forget that voice, I won’t forget that smile
I won’t forget the moments we had together
In the shifting future
I just want you to say you love me

lovejuice/w/o notice??

LOVE JUICE..

Don't know where you're from
Never seen you around
But that don't mean nothing to me
Just want a taste of that...
Drop that shit life...
She stood there waiting alone
Green eyes her shoulder exposed
Smiling and biting her straw
She gave me one look, I froze
Her sexy inviting eyes
My hands on her hips as we grind
She whispered in an accent unknown
Just let go, let the music take control
Move your body, nothing crazy
So take it slow, there's so many things I want you to know
I ain't leaving you, cuz I'm yours tonight"
I can tell you want me too
And every time I think of you
That luscious drink your lips produce
I can taste that sweet LOVEJUICE
"Oh","Oh","More","Slow"
Classy like none of these hoes
Pretty little frame under her clothes
Those lips as red as a rose
Vibing to the beat from the Boze
Don't rush the night is still young
Take it to the room and sex things up
I can see you call out my name, saying
"Dont stop, more" I'm trying to see how your lips feel
All we need is body language
And now I know, I'm falling for you and I just can't lie
I won't go nowhere cuz I'm your man tonight
See, I've been all around the world but I ain't seen nothing
And now I got four minutes to take you back, girl we can be something

W/o Notice??

"Nice to meet you", at that moment, something echoed somewhere inside me
That was, soon after that, just like that, then as time goes by
I close my eyes, and ask my heart Is it LOVE♥?
It came to me without notice
Look at me, my girl, when we put our hands together
Find something fluttering inside me, I wish just a little bit...
Don't be short, my girl, take away that 'something'
At once, hurry, come close to me,
Sign, that's not I want, it's you I want♥, but
The night will end soon, hurry up, I need to tell you
I sweat, you stimulate my body, your eyes, stay deep in my mind
Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, think, about you,
thinking, I am, without notice

DUES: Don't U Ever Stop!!

No one knows this story, I´ll tell you it slowly
I´m not good at saying it, but you are not alone.

Unforgetable feelings, this confusion..
I´ll embrace it all and leave.

The flower of you bloomed in the corner of this treacherous town.
Honestly, I really wanted a night that I felt you

Don´t you ever stop, you know it, don´t stop
Fate is digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
I was confused..admiring this town.

We´ll count the nights we spent here together
This is our final romance, so let´s look straight at it.

Don´t you ever stop.

I wanna tell u secrets.
A one-time-only party starts tonight
There´s nothing to lose, we can´t go back
We´ll risk it all - let show begin!

The flower of you is fluttering in the back alley of hesitation
Not saying what you know is just void and pointless.

Don´t you ever stop, you know it, don´t stop
Fate is digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
from the day we set out

Don´t you ever stop

Are you ready?
Hell yeah!!

Don´t you ever stop, you know it, don´t stop
Fate is digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
from the day we set out

Don´t you ever stop.... STOP!

Into Mine

I don’t know really what to write.
I miss you. Here, sitting here, I miss the warmth of your body,
the darkness of your aura, your alluring sound of your voice,
the stupid jokes you make that are not even funny, but I laugh inside anyway.
Do you remember how we first met?
I know it sounds clichéd, but it really does only seem like yesterday.
I miss you. I always will.
Wherever I may end up,
I know that deep down somewhere I will know of you and there will always be a part of me,
no matter how hidden that will miss you.
But you mustn’t miss me Kazu.
I have moved on and there is nothing you nor anyone could have done.
We are of two worlds, we knew that from the beginning.
We knew this end will come someday.
So don’t grieve for me.
I don’t want those tears for I have no regrets.
I will be smiling as I step out to the platform tomorrow.
I will be thinking of you right till the last moment.
Don’t cry for me. If I were given a chance to turn back time and do it over,
I would walk this path again.
Willingly and happily and without regret.
I will say goodbye because I want you to move on.
Knowing that I had been a part of you that once happened,
that we had once shared times together, good and bad, is enough for me.

Like you always sang..
Love, it looks like it will melt
Love, how deep can it be
Love, how painful it is
Love, how hot it is
Love, soon it will be enjoyable
Love, it looks like it will melt
Love, it drives people crazy,
Love, to me only
Love, tightly bonded,
Love, deeply
Love, won't be able to return the second time

There's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Sometimes love just ain't enough
I'm sorry for what I wrote
I didn't know the truth
I'm really sorry..

How I Forget

I watched you from behind - your arms catching her in a deep embrace,
the soft lips that used to graze mine so lovingly were now on hers.
Everything broke apart since she stepped between us,
tearing us apart like that old photograph.

I've never felt more alone.
The moment you tore that photograph,
you tore off my smile - my whole life,
and my entire being.

If I could, I would shout it out to your face.
Why, Kazu? Why?

Watch me deal with this.
Watch me, watch me drown.
Watch me disappear in midst of everyone's laughter.
Watch me die with words from those lips I'm bewitched by.

Hitting the dance floor night after night;
Smoky disco lights spinning,
Mindlessly drinking,
Half-heartedly laughing,
Suggestively dancing ...
Waiting to be preyed on.

Take me home as you wish, whoever you are.
Do as you want, I'm all yours tonight -
Kiss me.
Claim me and,
Leave me.

He was kneeling down, picking up the glass pieces of the clockface that shattered upon the fall.
I remembered how he stayed up that whole night, glueing back the pieces one by one.

You fixed the clock.
What about my heart?

I hastily picked a set of clothes to wear and
put on the perfume that
he used to love sniffing from my neck.

If I ever think of you,
I know just what I need.

Kazu,
This is how I make myself forget.

Nothingness..

Drowning, I’m falling.
This emptiness inside,
Forever calling.
The numbness won’t subside.

Two years I’ve watched snow
From crimson leaves
Into spring green flow,
But my eyes were deceived.

It’s winter everlasting now.
I’m imprisoned by
Your receding shadow.
I drown in the tears I cry.

The pain won’t subside.
My friend, my foe;
For two years I’ve cried.
What is Love, I do not know.

I hear Kizuna for 3 Years already!!!

たったひとつの恋

People having problems are everywhere in this world..
I have always hated this place..
Except the fact that I get to see you..
But you are always so busy..
Even on your birthday..
You eat so little you might collapse..
I'm afraid to lose you..
You're fragile and everyone's forcing you..
Even when you wrote that love letter..
They had to let the whole world know..
I seriously hate this..
But it's your own choice to continue being the star of Japan..
You're not taking this well..I can see it..
Friends will always be by your side supporting you.. Even me..
But you just.. Nevermind..
It's no use telling everything when you don't even want to stop..
Are you only going to stop when you end up in hospital, depending on a machinery to live??
Well, you're dedicated.. I know..
But you're just stressing yourself out..
Doing what you feel is right might not be right..
People around you are hurt that you eat so little..
Rest whenever you can and stop thinking about work for once..
Treasure your life.. That time you had a long break and I know you tried..
But you are still not like how i first met you..
Cheerful, Happy, Smiling at everyone..
Now.. You've changed into someone I don't even know anymore..
Please just change back.. I want you to be happy always..
That song you wrote for me..
Always.. Remember it??
You said you'll always be with me..
And that you'll sing for me..
It was years ago.. But I still remembered that song..
It's so nice, that song you wrote and sang to me..
Although my Japanese is not that good, I know what you mean..
In that song you wrote for me, the letter you gave me..
Everything shows that you care about me..
But you're not caring about yourself..
It hurts inside.. Deep down inside..
My one and only love..

Our Double Destiny

Dancing for you will be the last thing i will do..
Unless you request it..
Feeding you will be the second last thing i will do..
Unless you want it..
Cooking for you will be the third last thing i will do..
Unless you taste it..
Doing anything you will be the very first thing i will do..
Cause you're worth it..
Loving you will always be in the middle..
Cause i hold that hope that you will never leave..
Knowing that one day, you will have to leave..
So I kept it in a place where no single soul will suspect..
Deep down inside..
It is the place where I kept you..
So that no one will take you away..
So that the happiness will stay..
And we will be the pair..
That causes everyone despair..
Double Destiny...

うたいつずけるとき

Lying down by the side of the road
Watching the drifting clouds
Wandering winds swaying the weeds
As though this empty me
Is merely something to be laughed at
Passing the seasons with a lack of expression
Just what could I trust?
Just who can I talk with?
With only outer appearances
Mundane futures are so trivial
By myself　spitting these out like this　everynight

The us here right now
Just what can we do?
Though we're not even prepared to get hurt
In these constantly repeating days
Wanting so much to know the answer, I'll
Continue to reach out my hand towards the distant sky
I sung during my childhood
That song spinning 'round and 'round
Yet I can't remember the next line
That time I had drawn
Far beyond that door
What kind of world stretches there?
Just what should I search for?
Just where should I head?
Tenderness and such
I had always thought of as a hindrance
Once and again trampling over your love
If we are to meet once again
Me, who's grown a little more mature
To be able to destroy this old rusted grief
Even if I can't see in front of me
Towards where that shining light is　I'll
Continue to push through the deep darkness today
The us here right now
Just what can we do?
Though we're not even prepared to get hurt
In these constantly repeating days
Wanting so much to know the answer, I'll
Continue to reach out my hand towards the distant sky today