tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81374744545068570472024-03-05T09:54:57.036-08:00Is there any meaning to this repetative life?Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.comBlogger52125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-73476858573130286872015-02-23T06:44:00.001-08:002015-02-23T06:44:23.853-08:00Happy Birthday Kazuya!!!<p dir="ltr">Today is Kame's birthday!!! Yay!! :D haha! It means another year older liao.. but still so cute.. i dont know why.. hehehehehe.. ok lah.. i know why lah.. cause I still like him.. 😅 CAUSE HE SO CUTE.. ok.. never ending cycle. But today, I feel like a new person altogether.. yaya, bian lao liao is like that one lah.. hahaha! But i think age doesn't really mean anything.. and when people try to go against you.. just let them be lor.. there will be people who appreciate you for who you are.. like my Kame, for example.. so many guys hate him sia, cause their girlfriends break up with them cause of him.. then he so sad until he cry.. :( then i so sad.. but these girls also siao one.. i dont understand why when you already got the one you want then you still want to leave them.. crazy.. anyway, going back to topic, he was so sad.. he cried cause of this.. he cried cause he fought with his best friend.. he cried cause he sat on his first roller coaster for the girl he liked.. and he had a fear of heights.. and the girl rejected him.. hahaha! That girl must be regretting now sia.. hahahaha! Even though he cried over all these things, he's still up on his feet.. not giving up.. so now.. he's still standing strong.. and I am so happy for him lah! Cause I love him so much.. 😁 i will never stop loving him with that amount of determination! ❤ ok, this post is only about the birthday boy.. so its okay if you all dont read.. but i think by now you all would have finished reading this longlong post.. hehehehe.. but anyway.. Happy Birthday Kazuya~ 😘</p>
Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-74437791561875188642015-02-21T07:43:00.001-08:002015-02-21T07:47:39.411-08:00Happy CNY!<p dir="ltr">These few days was CNY! today.. I went to visit 2 of my friend's house.. along the way, I passed by places that reminded me of the times we had.. i smiled, thinking about the days we use to have.. and I felt sad that we might not have such days together again.. well, the Singapore is so small.. Sometimes, places that holds the most memories is the place where we start a new path... Going different ways, leaving the memories behind.. and think that starting afresh is better than being stuck in the past.. 😊</p>
Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-87647328652917118542015-02-17T09:49:00.000-08:002015-02-17T09:49:47.801-08:00(: Talking about life as it isThe truth is, I am so sorry that my story 1st part so short.. cause I wrote it on my phone.. hahaha!! So now, in this post, I am going to talk about how I have been feeling these few days.. Some people might have been concerned about the way I was acting and some.. well.. they were just there.. so anyway.. when I started becoming aware of my feelings and surroundings.. I realise that there is no point in wanting it, or even craving for it.. because at the end of the day, I am just going to end up hurting myself.. about that.. I have come to a conclusion.. to not expect.. and be happy with what I have at this moment and time in life.. and I was down because of friends being not as close.. but I realise that it might not be that the bond is breaking cause of certain people, but because effort put in is lost.. also that since everyone each has their own position, it turned out like the ranked each other as according to the different positions.. I believe that this is not the way.. I think I do regret not wanting the position, but at the same time, the reason why I did not want that position is because I dont want to just be the only one to lead.. I want everyone to lead together. Being the leader is obviously not going to be easy, but sometimes, all you need is your members around, be it if they are in the committee or not.. I am not sure if I said this before.. So Im going to slide in a short memory of mine when I first joined Ippudo..<br />
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Basically, I was excited, because I loved the ramen there.. In the beginning, our GM would sit at the side, and just rest.. but he would never interact with anyone.. it might be because of the language barrier, or it might be that everyone was afraid of him.. well.. he was very strict, and I admire him for that. However, it felt like he was lonely.. when people were talking, he was just sitting at that very same corner.. So, I started talking to him. First, I used my CMI japanese (at that time, I havent join the school) so all I had were sentences formed by random words..<br />
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He laughed.. and everyone was surprised. Who would have thought that this person, the lead of our restaurant could laugh like that when he was so strict and so serious at work? Well, I did.. Do you know why? Because the main thing in life is to have fun and be happy.. If not what's the point of living.. and it was just that one act that made him open up to the rest of the staff. They still put their upmost respect in him, because he knows what he is doing and at he same time, he is able to convey his feelings to everyone else.<br />
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I really liked this job, because I was acknowledged for my hard work. He was the one observing, and RAISING MY PAY WOOOOO~ but anyway.. I am glad, and happy for that.. until that one day, I had to leave.. he told the store manager to talk to me... and he really wanted me to stay.. but I just had other duties so I couldnt.. and I was so sad to leave.. but I had no choice..<br />
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Well, memories of working in this place will never leave my mind, because I know that it is the place where I can keep my mind off things as well as the place where I made someone happy, because that place made me happy too.. even though the working hours were madness.. but I will never forget the team that made me learn new things everyday and understand people better...<br />
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SO, thats all for my long post.. haha!! next time.. My story is my story pt2 ok?? :DAkina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-7160033329779791822015-02-16T20:36:00.001-08:002015-02-16T20:46:48.380-08:00My story is my story Part 1<p dir="ltr"> I was once a quiet girl. All the friends I had was this one best friend, who taught me happiness. Well, at that time, I was a transfer student.. and I did not even know what was going on. However, this friend of mine, she was the first to talk to me, and since that day, we played together, laughed together, enjoying everyday of our lives.. and just like everyone else, we had quarrels and fights, but the very next day, it seemed like nothing has happened and we put the past behind us, continuing that friendship.<br>
Happiness do exist, but they might not last.. and she had to go back to her country the next year, but she will be the best friend that I will never forget. She was the one who made me believe that people out there can change your life and that as hope is never lost. So, if anyone of you are my friend, you always will be, be it if we fought or quarrelled. So if one day, when you feel down that you dont have any friends, you all still have me. 😊</p>
Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-86736298140577792532015-02-10T07:45:00.001-08:002015-02-10T07:45:51.268-08:00(((o(♡´▽`♡)o)))<p dir="ltr">I still feel sad when I see that.. 😔 but I cant do anything buy dont see.. haiyo.. but its okay, work is distracting me from such stuffs.. but i still have 1 assignment incompleted thats due tomorrow! Hopefully I'll finish on time.. </p>
<p dir="ltr">and I realise that I miss working like crazy.. hahaha.. and I miss the people I used to work with.. they were so nice, taught me so much stuffs and we had so much fun that I never missed supper with them.. but its our GM pay lah.. haha.. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I still remember that when I first joined Ippudo, he was so quiet and like always sitting in a corner.. and later he started disturbing me.. haha.. and I got this manager always talking about rubbish, and another who cannot stand him.. she treats me damn nice too! </p>
<p dir="ltr">But well, many first times happened to me at that point of time, but those were the happy days. The sad days happened when I left.. so I guess when I went back, I changed, but the staff changed too, and that atmosphere was gone.. but I still like working there, just that.. I feel tired of pretence and fake smiles.. so i decided to come to uni.. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I dont regret this decision though, but I realised that no matter where you are, people change, they dont stay as how they are everyday.. So I hope that I will stay as how I was, and when I change, its not too much. Haha! Im not even intending to change..</p>
<p dir="ltr">Thats because, I know I have changed too, everyone changes.. so now, I want to change back to who I used to be.. 😊</p>
<p dir="ltr">Thats all for now, I think for my next post I'll start telling stories, so if you read it.. hope you enjoy the drama.. <u>hehehe..</u></p>
Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-6191262417394480832015-02-07T07:20:00.001-08:002015-02-07T07:22:39.053-08:00Just another day<p dir="ltr">Yesterday after school, we went to play at a friend's house! And it's the first time I played the drums! It was so fun! Hahaha.. but I only know how to play on 2 drums only.. quite fun uh.. then the heart to heart talk just brought back memories.. memories that made me happy, as well as memories that made me sad.. but all that matters now is everything is over, and I should just walk into the light.. stand up once again, try opening up once again.. it's difficult.. I know.. but I will try. I have to try .</p>
Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-24900666647565127562015-02-05T07:33:00.000-08:002015-02-05T07:33:34.567-08:00(:Hi to people who are still reading my blog.. I dont know why you read it.. cause its all like random shit in my life.. HAHAHAHA! but anyway.. I have this assignment to do, which is due next wed.. then I'm stuck halfway.. I think I am just going to anyhow add stuffs in and pray it works. I really need to code more.. and today, I went home for dinner again~ I had chili prawns~ my favorite dish.. but I was so hungry I didnt took a pic.. hehe.. I created some stuffs for my game too.. but I dont even know if it works.. :( but I think I'll just try then..<br />
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Leaving work aside, I decided to stop living in the real world and go back to my fantasies again.. because living in my own world where I don't think about so many stuffs, and just focus on stuffs I want to do is so much easier then trying to make people like me, or understand me.. So, I dont care if you dont like me or what Im doing or my existence.. I MAKE MY OWN RULES! hahaha! so my smiles from today onwards would be caused by my fantasies and awesome memories and the thought of home cooked meals everyday~~ Thats the life I want.. Not a sad and depressing life where you think no one understands you or hates you.. So, I am going to stop being friendly.. SOUNDS SO BAD.. but well.. If you want to talk to me, I will reply like always, just maybe take hours or something.. I dont know.. depends if I am with my phone..<br />
<br />Because in my own world, there is no such thing as using the phone every single minute to find out if your friends replied to you or whatever.. and so, I will leave things as it is, and do things I want, my way. But if any of you dont like me like this.. want me to treat you different, you can always say. HAHAHA! cause I am used to it already.. I can do anything I want now that I dont care. Since even though I dont do things my way, people also think I dont care.. SO WHO CARES! I happy can liao..Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-52217109133438017932015-02-03T07:48:00.001-08:002015-02-03T07:48:43.068-08:00Well, I am back here.. haha! 2 days ago, I went to Pulau Ubin with Von, Sihao and Adolphus.. We went there to cycle, and uphills are our worst nightmare.. but it was fun while it lasted.. had beautiful scenes around us..<br />
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Yesterday.. When I went for acapella, it felt empty.. souless.. I dont even know the word... and I just felt so sad.. then later I spent some time pouring my heart out to 2 of my dear friends.. and I started crying.. ;( so sad.. but they were nice.. and kept comforting me.. And today.. I went to play basketball with my Uni friends! It was so fun! then later I went home..<br />
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All these conversations I've been having with people is so saddening.. and sometimes, I just wanna trash it all out.. but I know that I can't.. and I most probably won't as well.. so.. I hope that sooner or later that feeling just fade away.<br />
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and today, my mum cooked again! it was just the both of us at home though, but we had some nice home-cooked food.. and I finally get to eat tasty veggies again! ^-^<br />
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Thats all for now..Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-41438253486895854582015-01-25T02:43:00.000-08:002015-01-24T10:43:45.918-08:00:( I am supposed to be asleep now cause I gotta wake up at 6 tomorrow, but I cant sleep.. I think I am feeling sad cause I think too much.. but I dont know how to stop thinking.. Sometimes I feel that I should just stay that quiet little girl I was years ago.. and I realize that I am the type of girl that gets damn jealous, but doesnt say or do anything about it.. and I still try to be how I am.. :( I need my lovely music.. well.. I shall go entertain myself.. byebye.........Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-7774680045933523062015-01-24T05:50:00.002-08:002015-01-24T05:50:16.039-08:00I'm back!! and its been years since I posted here.. These few years things happened, sad, happy, frustrating and all those.. but I have learnt many things over these years. Friends are not forever.. :( well, I will most probably post about stuffs that happened to me these few years. It was like the fairytale I wanted is just gone like that.. Maybe I wanted it to be my fairytale, and I forgot that even fairytales have characters who are not in fairytales.. which means that.. not everyone will be able to get what they want.. OH WELL, and apparently someone told me I gotta get my heartbroken cause I am so in my fairytale world.. but I think its impossible.. cause people come and go.. and after things happen.. I got frightened and afraid to meet new people and trust them.. WELL!! too bad I guess.. not only for me but everyone else.. :( hahaha.. but now I am in university, Digipen, and I met this group of friends who are interesting and helpful.. Its nice to believe in people again, but I still have my barriers up. Another group of friends that I met are Just Singers. They might be occupied with work, or even stressed up because of work, but everyone makes time for singing. It's fun being with them because we get to sing together, without actually caring about how anyone else thinks of us. I am glad that I got to meet this group of people, because I have found friends that I believe I am able to share my experiences and stories with. They are awesome people, and even when you feel down or anything, they will always be there to support you. We even have our own FB page! Go like it ok!! https://www.facebook.com/sitjustsingers/timeline<br />
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Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-90710617357287015752011-09-19T07:07:00.000-07:002011-09-19T07:07:18.619-07:00MMF chalet (DAY 3)LAST DAY OF OUR CHALET UHHHHHHHHH! HAHAHA! then hor.. we ate our cup noodles in the chalet with no electricity, cause we had to check out liao~ so we ate in darkness! AHAHAH! damn retarded, after that, we decided to go to dohby gauht and play L4D! HAHAHA! so we just go play lor.. hahaha! after that.. went home liao~ and very tired.. AND WE ALL REACH HOME! KO AND WENT TO SLEEP ALREADYYYYYYYYYYYY~ HAHAHAHA! that is the end of our Maomao CHALET 2011! AHAHAHAHAH!Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-28300630255559204152011-09-19T06:59:00.000-07:002011-09-19T06:59:50.150-07:00MMF chalet (DAY 2)DAY 2!!!! HAHAH! we woke up at 10+ AND DECIDED ON MAC BREAKFAST!! but in the end.. NO BREAKFAST LIAO! T^T SO SAD! HAHA! so we ate the lunch instead lor~ HAHAHAHA! after that~ we went back to our room~ play play play~ then after that the bbq person ask us go collect! then we go collect lor~ then when we reach back, we played our 5 people mahjong! HAHA! MAOMAO STYLE AGAIN! HAHAHA! then after that the guys went swimming~ while we girls just watched television!! hahahaha!! then later we BBQ!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO~ and after that.. my daddy ask me go watch movie.. HAHA! so in the end, i watched 2 movies.. HAHAHA! AWESOME MOVIE SIA! REALLY! then when i went back to the chalet, they were all playing card games! HAHAHA! then later they played a few rounds of maomao style mahjong and then we played MURDERER! HAHAHAHA! DAMN RETARDED SIA! HAHAHA! cause Shunny always say want to call the police and say who is the murderer! HAHAAHAH! Then i will say.. press 1.. blahblahblah.. HAHAH! I BE THE OPERATOR! DAMN RETARDED SIA! HAHAHA! then he will say OK ENOUGH! HAHAHA! funny luh! then after that some of them went to night walk.. while James KO already.. and Xueer and Me on the bed resting.. HAHAH! in the end i fell asleep! and is Xueer open the door for them when they came back.. keke~ THIS IS DAY 2 OF OUR CHALET~ Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-46158781158755840632011-09-19T06:30:00.000-07:002011-09-19T06:30:47.889-07:00MMF chalet (DAY 1)BOOOOOOOOOO! I AM BACK! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!! actually.. i just woke up 3 hours ago~ CAUSE FOR THE PAST 3 DAYS I WAS HAVING CHALETTTTTTTTTTT~ SO FUN!! :D well.. during the first day, we carried so many things there lor! its like as if we're going to camping sia!! HAHA! then James bought Koi for us~ and MY ICECREAM MELT BY THE TIME I DRANK IT! :( HAHAHA! and when we reached, we sat and waited for that irritating shuttle bus for like 30+ min and ended up, we went to take public bus.. HAHAHA! then when we wanted to go into our room, IT WAS SO INSIDE CAN?! then we walk one round, just to find that irritating room luh! HAHAH!! but anyway~ once we reached, we were so tired!! then we BAN WU ZI! HAHA! cause we didnt like the way the bed was placed, so we go and transfer~ ahahaha!! after that we went to eat 'lunch' cause 4+ liao~ actually only me and Xueer went to eat~ haha!! then when we went back, we played mahjong!! SO IRRITATING cause we had to play on the bed!! no table mah.. TABLE EXPENSIVE!! haha!! after that they all went dinner~ and i stayed in the room.. cause I LAZY TO GO OUT! :x then hor.. i watched this dont know what show also.. THEN WHEN THEY COME BACK THEY KNOCK THE DOOR LIKE AS IF OUTSIDE GOT MONSTER SIA! HAHAHAHA! so retarded.. after that, we played our 7 people dai di!! (: MAOMAO STYLE~ ♥ SUDDENLY! GOT COCKROACH!!!!! HAHAAHAH! DAMN RETARDED SIA WE ALL! CATCHING ONE RETARDED COCKROACH! HAHAHAHA! THEN AFTER THAT WE WENT FOR OUR NIGHTWALK! damn dark luh!! then we walk walk walk walk walk .. and we turned back liao~ then we bathed and ate our CUP NOODLES! :D I tell you ah.. my TOM YAM SO SPICY! D: then i exchanged with Von's one~ cause hers not as spicy.. AHAHAHAHAHAH! after that we watched the uninvited.. THEN HOR! EVERYONE SLEPT! HAHA! cause the first part of the show abit boring.. HAHAAHHAAH! only left me and Si Hao.. we watched finish then go sleep liao~ kekekeke~ THIS IS OUR FIRST DAY OF CHALET! HAHAHAHAHA!Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-12120077708906702011-08-25T04:14:00.001-07:002011-08-25T04:16:06.802-07:00My Idol~ ♥<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjuxS-lYKvGrhW7szF7mmFlpce6pXBrJIwEEcdxgEGuaBPPcaWROTv_NrLjH8vtCtsTOWohyI09GtbWmllZnVRy-XIbDYiJRZkl4m1hrVGtwTlXfkRpLWqDFcVFc9ozxO4enbQQIjUbcRw/s1600/34564_464858038988_643873988_6481520_385531_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjuxS-lYKvGrhW7szF7mmFlpce6pXBrJIwEEcdxgEGuaBPPcaWROTv_NrLjH8vtCtsTOWohyI09GtbWmllZnVRy-XIbDYiJRZkl4m1hrVGtwTlXfkRpLWqDFcVFc9ozxO4enbQQIjUbcRw/s320/34564_464858038988_643873988_6481520_385531_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5644750640377517410" border="0" /></a>YAY! Back with another post! and Shin is officially my idol le!! MUAHAHAHAHA! he is damn cute and retarded.. SO CONTRAST THE FACE CAN? HAHA! I think I am becoming a fangirl already! OMG! haha!! One day before Natsu Matsuri he actually say cannot come one leh!! Then i so emo.. BUT HE CAME ON THAT DAY! THEN I DAMN HIGH! WOOOOOO~ but then.. I DONT DARE TO TALK TO HIM! I THINK I AM A FAIL FAN! HAHAHA! but so scary.. DAMN STRESS TO EVEN LOOK AT HIM LOR! OMGGGGGG! hahahaha!! well.. if it was Kame.. MOST PROBABLY I'LL ALSO DO THAT! HAHA! SO SCARY! ~.~ and before he go.. HE PAT ME! OMG! THE BEST THING THAT CAN HAPPEN TO A FANGIRL! HAHAHA! DAMN FUNNY! i still say dont want to wash hair! HAHAH! anywayy~ I DECIDED TO BE STALKER AND PUT HIS PICTURE AS MY MSN DP! ♥ SO COOL! HAHA! ok luh~ ENOUGH FANGIRLING~ kekekeke~ That's my idol~ ♥
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<br />Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-8746226189992120702011-07-24T20:40:00.000-07:002011-07-24T21:01:04.246-07:00so tired, so bored, so.. i dont even know how to say..<br />sometimes i think i just want to like NOT THINK!<br />D: i dont like to think.. i dont want to think..<br />but i just cant stop thinking.. so irritating..<br /><br />why quarrel over stuffs like that? it doesnt mean anything..<br />everyone is equal, and everyone has a meaning for what they do..<br />but what if you just dont understand the person?<br />what if the person thinking and your thinking is different?<br /><br />really so irritating luh..<br />when someone talks to me, i still try to smile..<br />even when i'm feeling down or sad..<br />because.. i dont want that person who did nothing to me,<br />feel like its his/her fault..<br /><br />seriously.. i just want to shut myself out from the world<br />and stay at home everyday.. i dont really care<br />i dont want to have anything, i dont want to have anything at all<br />i dont want to have friends with an attitude that makes me feel like its my fault<br />i didnt do anything to you<br /><br />people say that everyone's existance mean something in your life<br />what if everyone's existance is actually something extra,<br />you can live without anyone, but when you see someone laughing with someone,<br />you will feel envious.. but when you see someone quarrelling,<br />you are glad that you have no friends..<br /><br />but seriously.. do you even know what friends are?<br />friends are not for you to make use of,<br />friends are there to make you smile..<br />friends are people you can depend on when you feel down<br />but what if they cant let you?<br />they are still your friends for god's sake<br /><br />its not like you owe them or they owe you<br />making my friends happy, i like doing that..<br />but what if they make me feel irritated or angry?<br />i dont really care.. I mean..<br />They are after all still my friends..<br /><br />I remembered in Primary School..<br />i fought with my friend over some misunderstandings..<br />but.. the next day, i would always talk to her..<br />because.. she's my friend..<br />i cant possibly be angry at her forever..<br /><br />it hurts to hate someone, <br />thinking about how that person is better than you<br />or has more things than you..<br /><br />just think about it.. if you didnt hate that person<br />you will have an extra friend<br />whom you can share your thoughts and feelings with<br />isnt that nice?<br /><br />rather than hating someone for having what you dont have..<br />and not realising that you have things that they do not have..<br />what if their life is so much more unfortunate than yours<br />everyone is equal.. so it means that when they have something,<br />they have to lose something as well.<br /><br />did you know.. there are people who are smart and brilliant<br />and people go around saying that they hate them..<br />they might be suffering from an illness that might kill them anytime..<br /><br />as for people who look beautiful.. <br />they might look beautiful, but they have a deficiency..<br />i have a few very pretty friends.. <br />but one is deaf, another has a stutter..<br /><br />Seriously.. DIFFERENT PEOPLE ARE DIFFERENT IN WAYS!<br />I AM DIFFERENT FROM ALL THE OTHER GIRLS IN THE WORLD<br />BUT I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE IF PEOPLE CALL ME NAMES<br />OR EVEN IF THEY MAKE USE OF ME TO DO SOMETHING GOOD FOR THEM..<br />I DONT CARE OKAY?! they are my friends..<br /><br />so.. when you do something to my friend..<br />i will go all out to know your reason<br />because i know.. that there will be a reason for everything you do..<br />sometimes.. its frustrating..<br />because some people just dont listen..<br />dont they?Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-53366247050293274212011-07-24T03:51:00.000-07:002011-07-24T03:54:14.881-07:00CodessssssI AM GOING TO FAINT SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON! SO MANY CODES! NOT GOING TO HAVE ENOUGH SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP! D: i want Saturday to come soon.. So that I can see all the SKY PEEPS! although i already saw Yi Lei, Ad and Alisa~ I WANT TO SEE EVERYONEEE! EVEN EX-STAFFS!! I HOPE MY CODES CAN FINISH ON TIME! THEN IF THEY SAY WANT TO GO SING SONG CAN GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! kekeke~ i wish only luh~ I WANT TO SEE XAVIER BOEY!! SO MANY YEARS NEVER SEEEEEE HIM ALREADYYYYYYY!! always so busy that guy.. kekeke.. HOPEFULLY EVERYONE'S COMING ON SAT!! (:Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-49492276808653199182011-07-21T08:32:00.000-07:002011-07-21T09:05:57.272-07:00Harry Potter Ends!!Just like my title said.. HARRY POTTER HAS ENDED!! kekeke.. Today.. I WOKE UP AT 9.30 WHEN LESSON START AT 9.15!! SO FAIL RIGHT! haha~ anyway.. after school.. I MET UP WITH BRANDON AND JAZREEL GO WATCH HARRY POTTER!! So funny.. first we ate mac.. then i told Jaz it was Brandon's birthday tomorrow! then she was SHOCKED! haha! then later we go WATCH THE MOVIE! and me and Jaz planned to buy a cake.. SO FUNNY! after the movie, me and Jaz say go toilet! then we go, and when Brandon went in Jaz ESCAPED! HAHAH! after that I went out.. then I told Brandon to wait.. CAUSE JAZ AND HER MAKEUP! HAHAHA! really funny.. later i went to arcade.. I TOLD HIM THAT I CANNOT STAND STILL! FUNNY SIA! HAHAHA! after that JAZ CALLED ME! SHE SAID NO CAKE! D: AND WE WERE DECIDING DAMN LONG! AND ENDED UP BUYING THE SWENSENS ONE! SO BIG SIA! DAMN FUNNY!! After that, I told Brandon go down with me.. WE GO DOWN LIAO! THE CAKE STILL NOT DONE! SO RETARDED! HAHAHA! After that I WAS LIKE OMG! HOW HOW HOW! then i told him that I CANNOT FIND JAZ! HAHAHA! when she was actually hiding at Swensens.. SERIOUSLY SIA! 5MINS!! then after that this girl SEEMED like Brandon's fangirl.. DAMN FUNNY SIA! She still said she wanted a piece of our cake! HAHA! After that we give her lor!! HAHA! I STILL REMEMBER! WHEN WE COULD NOT FIND JAZ, HE SAID MAYBE SHE GO MAKE UP SOME MORE! HAHAHAHA! FUNNY SIA!! AFTER THAT GO HOME LE! CAUSE THEY 2 HAVE UT! awwwww~ OKAY LUH!! THEN WE GO HOME!<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipLGiXDfdhudqkEL42NV3YrLaesz6GabvXxJI6IjAopR4k9mcPb3CUnJGzWV4qu6CcGhF0YmTWdP3fVeHyDHdcRtD9iPcIBtU8WiTcRi0u0aWQqVxPmnZ2jFXaRc0IHkkspuub55bxCu4/s1600/IMAG0223.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 191px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipLGiXDfdhudqkEL42NV3YrLaesz6GabvXxJI6IjAopR4k9mcPb3CUnJGzWV4qu6CcGhF0YmTWdP3fVeHyDHdcRtD9iPcIBtU8WiTcRi0u0aWQqVxPmnZ2jFXaRc0IHkkspuub55bxCu4/s320/IMAG0223.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5631836956339275954" /></a><br />BIRTHDAY BOY!! kekeke~Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-85938561317235567252011-07-18T09:39:00.000-07:002011-07-18T09:44:50.377-07:00I HATE YOU!SERIOUSLY! I think sooner or later, I'll start hating all the guys in this world.. I AM SO IRRITATED WITH YOU CAN?! EVEN YOUR PRESENCE MAKES ME WANT TO RUN AWAY! AND PLEASE JUST STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT STUFFS WHERE YOU THINK YOU'RE RIGHT! WHEN A RELATIONSHIP DOES NOT WORK OUT, BOTH PARTIES ARE IN THE WRONG!! PISSING ME OFF SIA! WANT TO PLAY GAME ALSO DONT FEEL LIKE! PEOPLE LIKE YOU MAKE ME HATE GUYS! SERIOUSLY! I HATE GUYS SO FREAKING MUCH NOW! D: I SWEAR I HATE YOU SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH! GOD! EVEN YOUR EX HATES YOU OKAY?! SHE FINDS YOU IRRITATING SO JUST STOP IT OKAY?! I ALREADY TOLD YOU THAT YOU ARE IRRITATING THAT'S WHY SHE LEFT YOU! AND YOU DIE DIE ALSO DONT WANT TO LISTEN! ITS NOT MY FAULT OKAY?!Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-41064343147550308812011-07-17T20:48:00.000-07:002011-07-17T20:50:38.527-07:002D GAME!!IN CLASS NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! copied finished all the codes from worksheet liao~ NOW SINGING IN CLASS! HAHAHAHA! Singing XIN BU LIAO QIN! (新不了情 this one..) WITH FANG XIN!! CAUSE SHE ON THE SONG ON REPEAT SO KEEP SINGING! HAHAHA! I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING WORKKKKKKKKKK! D: BUT I WILL DO! HAHAHAHAH! OKAY~ BYEBYE! I GO DO ENHANCEMENT LIAO~Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-51182539660106590472011-07-16T06:58:00.001-07:002011-07-16T07:01:53.850-07:00Another day~its years since i posted here.. 2 years in fact!! I QUIT MY JOB AT MEIDI-YA ALREADY!! I feel sad.. no more Japanese guys during weekends.. :( FLASH BUILDER IS KILLING ME NOW! I still cannot import the dumb model.. AND WORSE OF ALL! MEETING ON TUESDAY! HOW?! I hope that person replies Jia Wen soon.. then dont need to so stress.. IT'S TIME FOR MAPLE NOW! cause I really dont feel like looking for the dumb piece of code already.. byebye~Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-33201025448362753592009-06-04T00:07:00.000-07:002009-06-04T01:49:33.117-07:00W15J 1st OUTING!!YAY!!! Finally I'm updating our first class outing!! hehe.. I know I took ages but who cares.. at least I am finally posting about it!! Well.. It happened on the 16th May..<br /><br />We met at Somerset MRT at 1.. I think.. hehe..<br />Then, there were only a few of us who arrived on time..<br />Well, so we waited..<br />When everyone came..<br />They were all commenting on the dress that I'm wearing..<br />That's because my "school uniform" was..<br />T shirt and jeans.. never a dress..<br /><br />Darren was so damn irritating like usual.. haha..<br />While waiting for the rest..<br />Shane called.. and he wanted to come too..<br />So.. we went to buy the tickets first..<br />Later.. Some of us went to eat at LJS..<br />The rest.. dont know they go where lah..<br />BUT LATER!! they go ARCADE!!<br />Then they never tell us!! SO PLAY CHEAT ONE!!<br /><br />haha.. anyway.. I ate 2 pcs chicken..<br />same as Neeza, Nat and Jaz..<br />I SWEAR we didnt plan to do that..<br />A while later, Juno arrived with Shane..<br />then we ate together.. (I know I'm not making sense..)<br /><br />anyway.. After that.. we went to watch the movie..<br />It was uninvited.. Weird show with a weird twist..<br />But it was alright.. Nat was like sitting beside me..<br />And she was practically laughing like hell..<br />Then suddenly.. in the midst of the movie..<br />Darren shouted out.. NATHIYA WHERE ARE YOU?<br />haha.. he did that on purpose lor.. so bad sia..<br /><br />After that.. some of them left..<br />While the rest walked around orchard..<br />BUSY CAMWHORING!!<br />haha.. then we wanted to take a picture of the whole class..<br />then this 2 cute ANG MOHS walked passed..<br />so we asked them to take the picture for us lor..<br />hah.. IT WAS FUN while it lasted..<br /><br />LOVES W15J (2009)<br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343370773508434898" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 242px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKPDF1k9E_sWUvdJp3Zd7VvAoZys71WR3P7fOiUz0VTRtE21SNjxyFidibwDHE2o3DCey56OmUkcQzJauGJrHi1RqtMrCBmXT8__-a1hUSOy_35cUz7zk50P7OoXYYR4UrcN1dyhIqBPU/s320/n540998900_1746813_5638254.jpg" border="0" />Shane, Jaz, Nat and me at LJS<br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdxGwB3LbjoroQfg51j16gHsOCIMZGWvaSPFsMQWUdO2L0Xc7YUp0_Di_plQPn5lpaUczotm_oDM3xSAQRlo64t05mD6ffjv-l_o9Xc1xHZfZnsGKs6yzSzPxfABPVyqPmTQ9SnTIssVQ/s1600-h/n540998900_1744053_4697064.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343370769535901666" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdxGwB3LbjoroQfg51j16gHsOCIMZGWvaSPFsMQWUdO2L0Xc7YUp0_Di_plQPn5lpaUczotm_oDM3xSAQRlo64t05mD6ffjv-l_o9Xc1xHZfZnsGKs6yzSzPxfABPVyqPmTQ9SnTIssVQ/s320/n540998900_1744053_4697064.jpg" border="0" /></a> Me and Jaz<br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4nIL4YFOaltGN-UmS45grk4amK_mSn-Rw7GijyMmTLR3nhpGqCHGDj6d1CXDaCRikJ98AzP3yynYNXeg0PF_6aAtrb9nPpnpQhKnK3SqOgHaQNglGxOBolLNPR_xuXhjK0dpODY4zBdA/s1600-h/4159_185710865122_732910122_6781011_2746163_n.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343370768648844754" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 215px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4nIL4YFOaltGN-UmS45grk4amK_mSn-Rw7GijyMmTLR3nhpGqCHGDj6d1CXDaCRikJ98AzP3yynYNXeg0PF_6aAtrb9nPpnpQhKnK3SqOgHaQNglGxOBolLNPR_xuXhjK0dpODY4zBdA/s320/4159_185710865122_732910122_6781011_2746163_n.jpg" border="0" /></a> OUR CLASS!!</div><div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0WyYDd-Xrs5LMGzYwzXJSFUOLlJp2BblIap2DFNthAJk2wAZZIRCKcDazFno1k_P7Z5Olslj0NwiZ5AEJQ4XSI3D-GZLPoNQu4whIOtw44opBPNR45uIJEit-5UgH4wnY0nMoa1NH1LI/s1600-h/4159_185538350122_732910122_6776787_46958_n.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343369195060238914" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0WyYDd-Xrs5LMGzYwzXJSFUOLlJp2BblIap2DFNthAJk2wAZZIRCKcDazFno1k_P7Z5Olslj0NwiZ5AEJQ4XSI3D-GZLPoNQu4whIOtw44opBPNR45uIJEit-5UgH4wnY0nMoa1NH1LI/s320/4159_185538350122_732910122_6776787_46958_n.jpg" border="0" /></a>Arfin and me (FRONT VIEW)<br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343369185192254274" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5SkRmPYeKx0buTYezaO8ouaMBWiKlBOTEdWFDI2IaMqnjeIPGa3V0ljTfei3JGfzxd986JoQfQQjawgUn_5rgVsdoWiRSHe5Hsj1OADxirDAEAt28VQ-TSIA564qFFJfPfozuQKUHaZE/s320/4153_116889320048_502755048_3014075_2748478_n.jpg" border="0" />(side view) cause dont know who take one..<br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgE4bBU9UFyRPsndnompQ4ZSpJE7o_k63uSDR-bQYOigOwF5icUIn-QlAo8Hid-qet6_lwkektB628tilgFryLyYnJaS4TYis7-ZfmohB4fUz1-lpVVQyY15d9Ja-4PXjeUP57JxgkS_T0/s1600-h/4159_185533935122_732910122_6776624_2303395_n.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343369190953860226" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgE4bBU9UFyRPsndnompQ4ZSpJE7o_k63uSDR-bQYOigOwF5icUIn-QlAo8Hid-qet6_lwkektB628tilgFryLyYnJaS4TYis7-ZfmohB4fUz1-lpVVQyY15d9Ja-4PXjeUP57JxgkS_T0/s320/4159_185533935122_732910122_6776624_2303395_n.jpg" border="0" /></a> Me, Jaz, Arfin, Nat and Neeza</div><div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCCRLlFYxWE3g3jIL0Li7rcPO7puNFJ_MJ60THM1OMsN6wXEsFkzPyi2Nf3OJXgQgEy7P1WqNvTzNh7Lb5F_aVLKyp97ZICIFaT-5EhyphenhyphenreJv0LsV2eCofu2HjrXg4npRmZecxsK8avlKw/s1600-h/4153_116889325048_502755048_3014076_7512463_n.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343369188040852338" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCCRLlFYxWE3g3jIL0Li7rcPO7puNFJ_MJ60THM1OMsN6wXEsFkzPyi2Nf3OJXgQgEy7P1WqNvTzNh7Lb5F_aVLKyp97ZICIFaT-5EhyphenhyphenreJv0LsV2eCofu2HjrXg4npRmZecxsK8avlKw/s320/4153_116889325048_502755048_3014076_7512463_n.jpg" border="0" /></a> Me and Darren<br /><div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjR_AvvVKhmBzPpMnDjU9PBCxk9R-dvtbagKB8rlZ9h3RHPifnWY-GoIp588w3t5Rj4r4TjaMnxMZleiHiF7A8mxsZ98JO4gn4fiwrhYfbEGckFN5GAySIwGM3pfib39Aee5lNFLdn6TEU/s1600-h/4153_116888010048_502755048_3014065_1823327_n.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343369181143279362" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjR_AvvVKhmBzPpMnDjU9PBCxk9R-dvtbagKB8rlZ9h3RHPifnWY-GoIp588w3t5Rj4r4TjaMnxMZleiHiF7A8mxsZ98JO4gn4fiwrhYfbEGckFN5GAySIwGM3pfib39Aee5lNFLdn6TEU/s320/4153_116888010048_502755048_3014065_1823327_n.jpg" border="0" /></a> Guys in W15J</div></div></div></div></div></div></div>Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-32273531316925146292009-05-18T08:15:00.000-07:002009-05-18T08:25:04.963-07:00BONDNo matter how much we consider the future,<br />No one can see the truth.<br />Something is blocking my blank mind,<br />It's just a mistake that I've been repeating.<br /><br />It's okay for my steps to continue,<br />These hands have seperated.<br />Walking away from where you continue to live,<br />Until I become worn out I keep prolonging<br />That time, that place,<br />It will never disappear - this bond.<br /><br />In time that flows,<br />I try not to lose anything.<br />Passing by,<br />We collided - true emotion<br />Permeated my heart,<br />Into warm desires<br />The miracle I requested<br />Came by chance.<br /><br />Even when things couldn't stand still,<br />Admist the pain,<br />I saw the light,<br />Because we're bound together.<br />It's okay if you lied,<br />And it's okay to cry.<br />That time, that place,<br />It will never disappear - this bond.Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-28313971346869513172009-04-22T17:52:00.000-07:002009-04-22T17:54:12.444-07:00ENFP - The InspirerAs an ENFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in primarily via your intuition. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit in with your personal value system.<br />ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others, more so than we see in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything. They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it.<br /><br />ENFPs have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. They are good at most things which interest them. Project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. To onlookers, the ENFP may seem directionless and without purpose, but ENFPs are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. Everything that they do must be in line with their values. An ENFP needs to feel that they are living their lives as their true Self, walking in step with what they believe is right. They see meaning in everything, and are on a continuous quest to adapt their lives and values to achieve inner peace. They're constantly aware and somewhat fearful of losing touch with themselves. Since emotional excitement is usually an important part of the ENFP's life, and because they are focused on keeping "centered", the ENFP is usually an intense individual, with highly evolved values.<br /><br />An ENFP needs to focus on following through with their projects. This can be a problem area for some of these individuals. Unlike other Extraverted types, ENFPs need time alone to center themselves, and make sure they are moving in a direction which is in sync with their values. ENFPs who remain centered will usually be quite successful at their endeavors. Others may fall into the habit of dropping a project when they become excited about a new possibility, and thus they never achieve the great accomplishments which they are capable of achieving.<br />Most ENFPs have great people skills. They are genuinely warm and interested in people, and place great importance on their inter-personal relationships. ENFPs almost always have a strong need to be liked. Sometimes, especially at a younger age, an ENFP will tend to be "gushy" and insincere, and generally "overdo" in an effort to win acceptance. However, once an ENFP has learned to balance their need to be true to themselves with their need for acceptance, they excel at bringing out the best in others, and are typically well-liked. They have an exceptional ability to intuitively understand a person after a very short period of time, and use their intuition and flexibility to relate to others on their own level.<br /><br />Because ENFPs live in the world of exciting possibilities, the details of everyday life are seen as trivial drudgery. They place no importance on detailed, maintenance-type tasks, and will frequently remain oblivous to these types of concerns. When they do have to perform these tasks, they do not enjoy themselves. This is a challenging area of life for most ENFPs, and can be frustrating for ENFP's family members.<br /><br />An ENFP who has "gone wrong" may be quite manipulative - and very good it. The gift of gab which they are blessed with makes it naturally easy for them to get what they want. Most ENFPs will not abuse their abilities, because that would not jive with their value systems.<br />ENFPs sometimes make serious errors in judgment. They have an amazing ability to intuitively perceive the truth about a person or situation, but when they apply judgment to their perception, they may jump to the wrong conclusions.<br /><br />ENFPs who have not learned to follow through may have a difficult time remaining happy in marital relationships. Always seeing the possibilities of what could be, they may become bored with what actually is. The strong sense of values will keep many ENFPs dedicated to their relationships. However, ENFPs like a little excitement in their lives, and are best matched with individuals who are comfortable with change and new experiences.<br /><br />Having an ENFP parent can be a fun-filled experience, but may be stressful at times for children with strong Sensing or Judging tendancies. Such children may see the ENFP parent as inconsistent and difficult to understand, as the children are pulled along in the whirlwind life of the ENFP. Sometimes the ENFP will want to be their child's best friend, and at other times they will play the parental authoritarian. But ENFPs are always consistent in their value systems, which they will impress on their children above all else, along with a basic joy of living.<br />ENFPs are basically happy people. They may become unhappy when they are confined to strict schedules or mundane tasks. Consequently, ENFPs work best in situations where they have a lot of flexibility, and where they can work with people and ideas. Many go into business for themselves. They have the ability to be quite productive with little supervision, as long as they are excited about what they're doing.<br /><br />Because they are so alert and sensitive, constantly scanning their environments, ENFPs often suffer from muscle tension. They have a strong need to be independent, and resist being controlled or labelled. They need to maintain control over themselves, but they do not believe in controlling others. Their dislike of dependence and suppression extends to others as well as to themselves.<br /><br />ENFPs are charming, ingenuous, risk-taking, sensitive, people-oriented individuals with capabilities ranging across a broad spectrum. They have many gifts which they will use to fulfill themselves and those near them, if they are able to remain centered and master the ability of following through.<br /><br />Jungian functional preference ordering for ENFP:<br />Dominant: Extraverted Intuition<br />Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling<br />Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking<br />Inferior: Introverted SensingAkina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-26069793316633911092009-04-16T06:55:00.000-07:002009-04-16T06:56:37.642-07:00RequiemIf wanting you would cause me, anguish…<br />Then let my heart wrench in pain…<br /><br /><br />If having you means death…<br />Then let me commit suicide…<br /><br /><br />If being with you would char my soul…<br />Then let the flames of hell blaze upon me…<br /><br /><br />If my restlessness would make you feel at ease…<br />Then let me be eternally weary…<br /><br /><br />If my agony would be your console…<br />Then let me suffer…<br /><br /><br />If my melancholy would be your bliss…<br />Then let my tears drown me…<br /><br />…and…<br /><br />If my blood would keep you alive…<br />Then let me bleed for you…<br /><br /><br />Because without you…<br />My life would mean nothing…<br /><br /><br />…I love you…Akina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137474454506857047.post-90267991766618841102009-04-11T20:06:00.000-07:002009-04-11T20:13:39.767-07:001582Controlled all the way to the fingertips<br />Becoming insanely numb<br />The pressure builds inside my head<br />Where am I and why?<br />The light before my eyes disappears<br />Permanently sleeping, even if I die<br /><br />Tempting<br />Complaining<br />Those red lips<br /><br />The pounding of my numbing heart becomes disrupted<br /><br />Stain yourself by drowning in that blood<br /><br />Wide eyes facing blood<br />What do they reflect?<br />Please please hold me in those hands<br /><br />I chew on my cheek and ponder<br />As the hands of the clock overlap<br />Hold my hands to my chest and beg<br />That you will always recover<br />Love...<br /><br />Even this heart littered with wounds<br />Is watching you<br />Desire it is not<br />I know this unconsciously<br /><br />Does the drug that heals your wound feel good?<br />We'll go crazy at Mizuko tomorrow<br />Or don't you want that?<br /><br />Stain yourself by drowning in that blood<br /><br />The dream and scattered stars<br />Which I saw with you day after day<br />I hold my hands to my chest and beg<br />That you will please please recover<br /><br />What is this tender feeling?<br />It changes colour every secondF<br />orever and ever hold me in those hands<br />With love<br /><br />Tempting<br />Complaining<br />Heal the wound<br /><br />Wide eyes facing blood<br />What do they reflect?<br />Please please hold me in those hands<br /><br />I chew on my cheek and ponder<br />As the hands of the clock overlap<br />I hold my hands to my chest and beg<br />That you will always recover<br /><br />The dream and scattered stars<br />Which I saw with you day after day<br />I hold my hands to my chest and beg<br />That you will please please recover<br /><br />What is this tender feeling?<br />It changes colour every second<br />Forever and ever hold me in those hands<br />With loveAkina~ ♥♫♥♪♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/00289993641954234064noreply@blogger.com0