My story is my story Part 1

  I was once a quiet girl. All the friends I had was this one best friend, who taught me happiness. Well, at that time, I was a transfer student.. and I did not even know what was going on. However, this friend of mine, she was the first to talk to me, and since that day, we played together, laughed together, enjoying everyday of our lives.. and just like everyone else, we had quarrels and fights, but the very next day, it seemed like nothing has happened and we put the past behind us, continuing that friendship.
  Happiness do exist, but they might not last.. and she had to go back to her country the next year, but she will be the best friend that I will never forget. She was the one who made me believe that people out there can change your life and that as hope is never lost. So, if anyone of you are my friend, you always will be, be it if we fought or quarrelled. So if one day, when you feel down that you dont have any friends, you all still have me.  😊

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I still feel sad when I see that.. 😔 but I cant do anything buy dont see.. haiyo.. but its okay, work is distracting me from such stuffs.. but i still have 1 assignment incompleted thats due tomorrow! Hopefully I'll finish on time..

and I realise that I miss working like crazy.. hahaha.. and I miss the people I used to work with.. they were so nice, taught me so much stuffs and we had so much fun that I never missed supper with them.. but its our GM pay lah.. haha..

I still remember that when I first joined Ippudo, he was so quiet and like always sitting in a corner.. and later he started disturbing me.. haha.. and I got this manager always talking about rubbish, and another who cannot stand him.. she treats me damn nice too!

But well, many first times happened to me at that point of time, but those were the happy days. The sad days happened when I left.. so I guess when I went back, I changed, but the staff changed too, and that atmosphere was gone.. but I still like working there, just that.. I feel tired of pretence and fake smiles.. so i decided to come to uni..

I dont regret this decision though, but I realised that no matter where you are, people change, they dont stay as how they are everyday.. So I hope that I will stay as how I was, and when I change, its not too much. Haha! Im not even intending to change..

Thats because, I know I have changed too, everyone changes.. so now, I want to change back to who I used to be.. 😊

Thats all for now, I think for my next post I'll start telling stories, so if you read it.. hope you enjoy the drama.. hehehe..

Just another day

Yesterday after school, we went to play at a friend's house! And it's the first time I played the drums! It was so fun! Hahaha.. but I only know how to play on 2 drums only.. quite fun uh.. then the heart to heart talk just brought back memories.. memories that made me happy, as well as memories that made me sad.. but all that matters now is everything is over, and I should just walk into the light.. stand up once again, try opening up once again.. it's difficult.. I know.. but I will try. I have to try .

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Hi to people who are still reading my blog.. I dont know why you read it.. cause its all like random shit in my life.. HAHAHAHA! but anyway.. I have this assignment to do, which is due next wed.. then I'm stuck halfway.. I think I am just going to anyhow add stuffs in and pray it works. I really need to code more.. and today, I went home for dinner again~ I had chili prawns~ my favorite dish.. but I was so hungry I didnt took a pic.. hehe.. I created some stuffs for my game too.. but I dont even know if it works.. :( but I think I'll just try then..

Leaving work aside, I decided to stop living in the real world and go back to my fantasies again.. because living in my own world where I don't think about so many stuffs, and just focus on stuffs I want to do is so much easier then trying to make people like me, or understand me.. So, I dont care if you dont like me or what Im doing or my existence.. I MAKE MY OWN RULES! hahaha! so my smiles from today onwards would be caused by my fantasies and awesome memories and the thought of home cooked meals everyday~~ Thats the life I want.. Not a sad and depressing life where you think no one understands you or hates you.. So, I am going to stop being friendly.. SOUNDS SO BAD.. but well.. If  you want to talk to me, I will reply like always, just maybe take hours or something.. I dont know.. depends if I am with my phone..

Because in my own world, there is no such thing as using the phone every single minute to find out if your friends replied to you or whatever.. and so, I will leave things as it is, and do things I want, my way. But if any of you dont like me like this.. want me to treat you different, you can always say. HAHAHA! cause I am used to it already.. I can do anything I want now that I dont care. Since even though I dont do things my way, people also think I dont care.. SO WHO CARES! I happy can liao..

Well, I am back here.. haha! 2 days ago, I went to Pulau Ubin with Von, Sihao and Adolphus.. We went there to cycle, and uphills are our worst nightmare.. but it was fun while it lasted.. had beautiful scenes around us..

HERE'S A PIC! :D


Yesterday.. When I went for acapella, it felt empty.. souless.. I dont even know the word... and I just felt so sad.. then later I spent some time pouring my heart out to 2 of my dear friends.. and I started crying.. ;( so sad.. but they were nice.. and kept comforting me.. And today.. I went to play basketball with my Uni friends! It was so fun! then later I went home..

All these conversations I've been having with people is so saddening.. and sometimes, I just wanna trash it all out.. but I know that I can't.. and I most probably won't as well.. so.. I hope that sooner or later that feeling just fade away.

and today, my mum cooked again! it was just the both of us at home though, but we had some nice home-cooked food.. and I finally get to eat tasty veggies again! ^-^

Thats all for now..

:( I am supposed to be asleep now cause I gotta wake up at 6 tomorrow, but I cant sleep.. I think I am feeling sad cause I think too much.. but I dont know how to stop thinking.. Sometimes I feel that I should just stay that quiet little girl I was years ago.. and I realize that I am the type of girl that gets damn jealous, but doesnt say or do anything about it.. and I still try to be how I am.. :( I need my lovely music.. well.. I shall go entertain myself.. byebye.........

I'm back!! and its been years since I posted here.. These few years things happened, sad, happy, frustrating and all those.. but I have learnt many things over these years. Friends are not forever.. :( well, I will most probably post about stuffs that happened to me these few years. It was like the fairytale I wanted is just gone like that.. Maybe I wanted it to be my fairytale, and I forgot that even fairytales have characters who are not in fairytales.. which means that.. not everyone will be able to get what they want.. OH WELL, and apparently someone told me I gotta get my heartbroken cause I am so in my fairytale world.. but I think its impossible.. cause people come and go.. and after things happen.. I got frightened and afraid to meet new people and trust them.. WELL!! too bad I guess.. not only for me but everyone else.. :( hahaha.. but now I am in university, Digipen, and I met this group of friends who are interesting and helpful.. Its nice to believe in people again, but I still have my barriers up. Another group of friends that I met are Just Singers. They might be occupied with work, or even stressed up because of work, but everyone makes time for singing. It's fun being with them because we get to sing together, without actually caring about how anyone else thinks of us. I am glad that I got to meet this group of people, because I have found friends that I believe I am able to share my experiences and stories with. They are awesome people, and even when you feel down or anything, they will always be there to support you. We even have our own FB page! Go like it ok!! https://www.facebook.com/sitjustsingers/timeline

HERE THEY ARE! THE AWESOME PEOPLE! (: