so tired, so bored, so.. i dont even know how to say..
sometimes i think i just want to like NOT THINK!
D: i dont like to think.. i dont want to think..
but i just cant stop thinking.. so irritating..

why quarrel over stuffs like that? it doesnt mean anything..
everyone is equal, and everyone has a meaning for what they do..
but what if you just dont understand the person?
what if the person thinking and your thinking is different?

really so irritating luh..
when someone talks to me, i still try to smile..
even when i'm feeling down or sad..
because.. i dont want that person who did nothing to me,
feel like its his/her fault..

seriously.. i just want to shut myself out from the world
and stay at home everyday.. i dont really care
i dont want to have anything, i dont want to have anything at all
i dont want to have friends with an attitude that makes me feel like its my fault
i didnt do anything to you

people say that everyone's existance mean something in your life
what if everyone's existance is actually something extra,
you can live without anyone, but when you see someone laughing with someone,
you will feel envious.. but when you see someone quarrelling,
you are glad that you have no friends..

but seriously.. do you even know what friends are?
friends are not for you to make use of,
friends are there to make you smile..
friends are people you can depend on when you feel down
but what if they cant let you?
they are still your friends for god's sake

its not like you owe them or they owe you
making my friends happy, i like doing that..
but what if they make me feel irritated or angry?
i dont really care.. I mean..
They are after all still my friends..

I remembered in Primary School..
i fought with my friend over some misunderstandings..
but.. the next day, i would always talk to her..
because.. she's my friend..
i cant possibly be angry at her forever..

it hurts to hate someone,
thinking about how that person is better than you
or has more things than you..

just think about it.. if you didnt hate that person
you will have an extra friend
whom you can share your thoughts and feelings with
isnt that nice?

rather than hating someone for having what you dont have..
and not realising that you have things that they do not have..
what if their life is so much more unfortunate than yours
everyone is equal.. so it means that when they have something,
they have to lose something as well.

did you know.. there are people who are smart and brilliant
and people go around saying that they hate them..
they might be suffering from an illness that might kill them anytime..

as for people who look beautiful..
they might look beautiful, but they have a deficiency..
i have a few very pretty friends..
but one is deaf, another has a stutter..

Seriously.. DIFFERENT PEOPLE ARE DIFFERENT IN WAYS!
I AM DIFFERENT FROM ALL THE OTHER GIRLS IN THE WORLD
BUT I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE IF PEOPLE CALL ME NAMES
OR EVEN IF THEY MAKE USE OF ME TO DO SOMETHING GOOD FOR THEM..
I DONT CARE OKAY?! they are my friends..

so.. when you do something to my friend..
i will go all out to know your reason
because i know.. that there will be a reason for everything you do..
sometimes.. its frustrating..
because some people just dont listen..
dont they?

Codessssss

I AM GOING TO FAINT SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON! SO MANY CODES! NOT GOING TO HAVE ENOUGH SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP! D: i want Saturday to come soon.. So that I can see all the SKY PEEPS! although i already saw Yi Lei, Ad and Alisa~ I WANT TO SEE EVERYONEEE! EVEN EX-STAFFS!! I HOPE MY CODES CAN FINISH ON TIME! THEN IF THEY SAY WANT TO GO SING SONG CAN GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! kekeke~ i wish only luh~ I WANT TO SEE XAVIER BOEY!! SO MANY YEARS NEVER SEEEEEE HIM ALREADYYYYYYY!! always so busy that guy.. kekeke.. HOPEFULLY EVERYONE'S COMING ON SAT!! (:

Harry Potter Ends!!

Just like my title said.. HARRY POTTER HAS ENDED!! kekeke.. Today.. I WOKE UP AT 9.30 WHEN LESSON START AT 9.15!! SO FAIL RIGHT! haha~ anyway.. after school.. I MET UP WITH BRANDON AND JAZREEL GO WATCH HARRY POTTER!! So funny.. first we ate mac.. then i told Jaz it was Brandon's birthday tomorrow! then she was SHOCKED! haha! then later we go WATCH THE MOVIE! and me and Jaz planned to buy a cake.. SO FUNNY! after the movie, me and Jaz say go toilet! then we go, and when Brandon went in Jaz ESCAPED! HAHAH! after that I went out.. then I told Brandon to wait.. CAUSE JAZ AND HER MAKEUP! HAHAHA! really funny.. later i went to arcade.. I TOLD HIM THAT I CANNOT STAND STILL! FUNNY SIA! HAHAHA! after that JAZ CALLED ME! SHE SAID NO CAKE! D: AND WE WERE DECIDING DAMN LONG! AND ENDED UP BUYING THE SWENSENS ONE! SO BIG SIA! DAMN FUNNY!! After that, I told Brandon go down with me.. WE GO DOWN LIAO! THE CAKE STILL NOT DONE! SO RETARDED! HAHAHA! After that I WAS LIKE OMG! HOW HOW HOW! then i told him that I CANNOT FIND JAZ! HAHAHA! when she was actually hiding at Swensens.. SERIOUSLY SIA! 5MINS!! then after that this girl SEEMED like Brandon's fangirl.. DAMN FUNNY SIA! She still said she wanted a piece of our cake! HAHA! After that we give her lor!! HAHA! I STILL REMEMBER! WHEN WE COULD NOT FIND JAZ, HE SAID MAYBE SHE GO MAKE UP SOME MORE! HAHAHAHA! FUNNY SIA!! AFTER THAT GO HOME LE! CAUSE THEY 2 HAVE UT! awwwww~ OKAY LUH!! THEN WE GO HOME!

BIRTHDAY BOY!! kekeke~

I HATE YOU!

SERIOUSLY! I think sooner or later, I'll start hating all the guys in this world.. I AM SO IRRITATED WITH YOU CAN?! EVEN YOUR PRESENCE MAKES ME WANT TO RUN AWAY! AND PLEASE JUST STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT STUFFS WHERE YOU THINK YOU'RE RIGHT! WHEN A RELATIONSHIP DOES NOT WORK OUT, BOTH PARTIES ARE IN THE WRONG!! PISSING ME OFF SIA! WANT TO PLAY GAME ALSO DONT FEEL LIKE! PEOPLE LIKE YOU MAKE ME HATE GUYS! SERIOUSLY! I HATE GUYS SO FREAKING MUCH NOW! D: I SWEAR I HATE YOU SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH! GOD! EVEN YOUR EX HATES YOU OKAY?! SHE FINDS YOU IRRITATING SO JUST STOP IT OKAY?! I ALREADY TOLD YOU THAT YOU ARE IRRITATING THAT'S WHY SHE LEFT YOU! AND YOU DIE DIE ALSO DONT WANT TO LISTEN! ITS NOT MY FAULT OKAY?!

2D GAME!!

IN CLASS NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! copied finished all the codes from worksheet liao~ NOW SINGING IN CLASS! HAHAHAHA! Singing XIN BU LIAO QIN! (新不了情 this one..) WITH FANG XIN!! CAUSE SHE ON THE SONG ON REPEAT SO KEEP SINGING! HAHAHA! I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING WORKKKKKKKKKK! D: BUT I WILL DO! HAHAHAHAH! OKAY~ BYEBYE! I GO DO ENHANCEMENT LIAO~

Another day~

its years since i posted here.. 2 years in fact!! I QUIT MY JOB AT MEIDI-YA ALREADY!! I feel sad.. no more Japanese guys during weekends.. :( FLASH BUILDER IS KILLING ME NOW! I still cannot import the dumb model.. AND WORSE OF ALL! MEETING ON TUESDAY! HOW?! I hope that person replies Jia Wen soon.. then dont need to so stress.. IT'S TIME FOR MAPLE NOW! cause I really dont feel like looking for the dumb piece of code already.. byebye~