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Hi to people who are still reading my blog.. I dont know why you read it.. cause its all like random shit in my life.. HAHAHAHA! but anyway.. I have this assignment to do, which is due next wed.. then I'm stuck halfway.. I think I am just going to anyhow add stuffs in and pray it works. I really need to code more.. and today, I went home for dinner again~ I had chili prawns~ my favorite dish.. but I was so hungry I didnt took a pic.. hehe.. I created some stuffs for my game too.. but I dont even know if it works.. :( but I think I'll just try then..

Leaving work aside, I decided to stop living in the real world and go back to my fantasies again.. because living in my own world where I don't think about so many stuffs, and just focus on stuffs I want to do is so much easier then trying to make people like me, or understand me.. So, I dont care if you dont like me or what Im doing or my existence.. I MAKE MY OWN RULES! hahaha! so my smiles from today onwards would be caused by my fantasies and awesome memories and the thought of home cooked meals everyday~~ Thats the life I want.. Not a sad and depressing life where you think no one understands you or hates you.. So, I am going to stop being friendly.. SOUNDS SO BAD.. but well.. If  you want to talk to me, I will reply like always, just maybe take hours or something.. I dont know.. depends if I am with my phone..

Because in my own world, there is no such thing as using the phone every single minute to find out if your friends replied to you or whatever.. and so, I will leave things as it is, and do things I want, my way. But if any of you dont like me like this.. want me to treat you different, you can always say. HAHAHA! cause I am used to it already.. I can do anything I want now that I dont care. Since even though I dont do things my way, people also think I dont care.. SO WHO CARES! I happy can liao..

Well, I am back here.. haha! 2 days ago, I went to Pulau Ubin with Von, Sihao and Adolphus.. We went there to cycle, and uphills are our worst nightmare.. but it was fun while it lasted.. had beautiful scenes around us..

HERE'S A PIC! :D


Yesterday.. When I went for acapella, it felt empty.. souless.. I dont even know the word... and I just felt so sad.. then later I spent some time pouring my heart out to 2 of my dear friends.. and I started crying.. ;( so sad.. but they were nice.. and kept comforting me.. And today.. I went to play basketball with my Uni friends! It was so fun! then later I went home..

All these conversations I've been having with people is so saddening.. and sometimes, I just wanna trash it all out.. but I know that I can't.. and I most probably won't as well.. so.. I hope that sooner or later that feeling just fade away.

and today, my mum cooked again! it was just the both of us at home though, but we had some nice home-cooked food.. and I finally get to eat tasty veggies again! ^-^

Thats all for now..

:( I am supposed to be asleep now cause I gotta wake up at 6 tomorrow, but I cant sleep.. I think I am feeling sad cause I think too much.. but I dont know how to stop thinking.. Sometimes I feel that I should just stay that quiet little girl I was years ago.. and I realize that I am the type of girl that gets damn jealous, but doesnt say or do anything about it.. and I still try to be how I am.. :( I need my lovely music.. well.. I shall go entertain myself.. byebye.........

I'm back!! and its been years since I posted here.. These few years things happened, sad, happy, frustrating and all those.. but I have learnt many things over these years. Friends are not forever.. :( well, I will most probably post about stuffs that happened to me these few years. It was like the fairytale I wanted is just gone like that.. Maybe I wanted it to be my fairytale, and I forgot that even fairytales have characters who are not in fairytales.. which means that.. not everyone will be able to get what they want.. OH WELL, and apparently someone told me I gotta get my heartbroken cause I am so in my fairytale world.. but I think its impossible.. cause people come and go.. and after things happen.. I got frightened and afraid to meet new people and trust them.. WELL!! too bad I guess.. not only for me but everyone else.. :( hahaha.. but now I am in university, Digipen, and I met this group of friends who are interesting and helpful.. Its nice to believe in people again, but I still have my barriers up. Another group of friends that I met are Just Singers. They might be occupied with work, or even stressed up because of work, but everyone makes time for singing. It's fun being with them because we get to sing together, without actually caring about how anyone else thinks of us. I am glad that I got to meet this group of people, because I have found friends that I believe I am able to share my experiences and stories with. They are awesome people, and even when you feel down or anything, they will always be there to support you. We even have our own FB page! Go like it ok!! https://www.facebook.com/sitjustsingers/timeline

HERE THEY ARE! THE AWESOME PEOPLE! (:

MMF chalet (DAY 3)

LAST DAY OF OUR CHALET UHHHHHHHHH! HAHAHA! then hor.. we ate our cup noodles in the chalet with no electricity, cause we had to check out liao~ so we ate in darkness! AHAHAH! damn retarded, after that, we decided to go to dohby gauht and play L4D! HAHAHA! so we just go play lor.. hahaha! after that.. went home liao~ and very tired.. AND WE ALL REACH HOME! KO AND WENT TO SLEEP ALREADYYYYYYYYYYYY~ HAHAHAHA! that is the end of our Maomao CHALET 2011! AHAHAHAHAH!

MMF chalet (DAY 2)

DAY 2!!!! HAHAH! we woke up at 10+ AND DECIDED ON MAC BREAKFAST!! but in the end.. NO BREAKFAST LIAO! T^T SO SAD! HAHA! so we ate the lunch instead lor~ HAHAHAHA! after that~ we went back to our room~ play play play~ then after that the bbq person ask us go collect! then we go collect lor~ then when we reach back, we played our 5 people mahjong! HAHA! MAOMAO STYLE AGAIN! HAHAHA! then after that the guys went swimming~ while we girls just watched television!! hahahaha!! then later we BBQ!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO~ and after that.. my daddy ask me go watch movie.. HAHA! so in the end, i watched 2 movies.. HAHAHA! AWESOME MOVIE SIA! REALLY! then when i went back to the chalet, they were all playing card games! HAHAHA! then later they played a few rounds of maomao style mahjong and then we played MURDERER! HAHAHAHA! DAMN RETARDED SIA! HAHAHA! cause Shunny always say want to call the police and say who is the murderer! HAHAAHAH! Then i will say.. press 1.. blahblahblah.. HAHAH! I BE THE OPERATOR! DAMN RETARDED SIA! HAHAHA! then he will say OK ENOUGH! HAHAHA! funny luh! then after that some of them went to night walk.. while James KO already.. and Xueer and Me on the bed resting.. HAHAH! in the end i fell asleep! and is Xueer open the door for them when they came back.. keke~ THIS IS DAY 2 OF OUR CHALET~

MMF chalet (DAY 1)

BOOOOOOOOOO! I AM BACK! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!! actually.. i just woke up 3 hours ago~ CAUSE FOR THE PAST 3 DAYS I WAS HAVING CHALETTTTTTTTTTT~ SO FUN!! :D well.. during the first day, we carried so many things there lor! its like as if we're going to camping sia!! HAHA! then James bought Koi for us~ and MY ICECREAM MELT BY THE TIME I DRANK IT! :( HAHAHA! and when we reached, we sat and waited for that irritating shuttle bus for like 30+ min and ended up, we went to take public bus.. HAHAHA! then when we wanted to go into our room, IT WAS SO INSIDE CAN?! then we walk one round, just to find that irritating room luh! HAHAH!! but anyway~ once we reached, we were so tired!! then we BAN WU ZI! HAHA! cause we didnt like the way the bed was placed, so we go and transfer~ ahahaha!! after that we went to eat 'lunch' cause 4+ liao~ actually only me and Xueer went to eat~ haha!! then when we went back, we played mahjong!! SO IRRITATING cause we had to play on the bed!! no table mah.. TABLE EXPENSIVE!! haha!! after that they all went dinner~ and i stayed in the room.. cause I LAZY TO GO OUT! :x then hor.. i watched this dont know what show also.. THEN WHEN THEY COME BACK THEY KNOCK THE DOOR LIKE AS IF OUTSIDE GOT MONSTER SIA! HAHAHAHA! so retarded.. after that, we played our 7 people dai di!! (: MAOMAO STYLE~ ♥ SUDDENLY! GOT COCKROACH!!!!! HAHAAHAH! DAMN RETARDED SIA WE ALL! CATCHING ONE RETARDED COCKROACH! HAHAHAHA! THEN AFTER THAT WE WENT FOR OUR NIGHTWALK! damn dark luh!! then we walk walk walk walk walk .. and we turned back liao~ then we bathed and ate our CUP NOODLES! :D I tell you ah.. my TOM YAM SO SPICY! D: then i exchanged with Von's one~ cause hers not as spicy.. AHAHAHAHAHAH! after that we watched the uninvited.. THEN HOR! EVERYONE SLEPT! HAHA! cause the first part of the show abit boring.. HAHAAHHAAH! only left me and Si Hao.. we watched finish then go sleep liao~ kekekeke~ THIS IS OUR FIRST DAY OF CHALET! HAHAHAHAHA!