Is there any meaning to this repetative life?

MMF chalet (DAY 3)

2011-09-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

LAST DAY OF OUR CHALET UHHHHHHHHH! HAHAHA! then hor.. we ate our cup noodles in the chalet with no electricity, cause we had to check out liao~ so we ate in darkness! AHAHAH! damn retarded, after that, we decided to go to dohby gauht and play L4D! HAHAHA! so we just go play lor.. hahaha! after that.. went home liao~ and very tired.. AND WE ALL REACH HOME! KO AND WENT TO SLEEP ALREADYYYYYYYYYYYY~ HAHAHAHA! that is the end of our Maomao CHALET 2011! AHAHAHAHAH!

MMF chalet (DAY 2)

2011-09-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

DAY 2!!!! HAHAH! we woke up at 10+ AND DECIDED ON MAC BREAKFAST!! but in the end.. NO BREAKFAST LIAO! T^T SO SAD! HAHA! so we ate the lunch instead lor~ HAHAHAHA! after that~ we went back to our room~ play play play~ then after that the bbq person ask us go collect! then we go collect lor~ then when we reach back, we played our 5 people mahjong! HAHA! MAOMAO STYLE AGAIN! HAHAHA! then after that the guys went swimming~ while we girls just watched television!! hahahaha!! then later we BBQ!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO~ and after that.. my daddy ask me go watch movie.. HAHA! so in the end, i watched 2 movies.. HAHAHA! AWESOME MOVIE SIA! REALLY! then when i went back to the chalet, they were all playing card games! HAHAHA! then later they played a few rounds of maomao style mahjong and then we played MURDERER! HAHAHAHA! DAMN RETARDED SIA! HAHAHA! cause Shunny always say want to call the police and say who is the murderer! HAHAAHAH! Then i will say.. press 1.. blahblahblah.. HAHAH! I BE THE OPERATOR! DAMN RETARDED SIA! HAHAHA! then he will say OK ENOUGH! HAHAHA! funny luh! then after that some of them went to night walk.. while James KO already.. and Xueer and Me on the bed resting.. HAHAH! in the end i fell asleep! and is Xueer open the door for them when they came back.. keke~ THIS IS DAY 2 OF OUR CHALET~

MMF chalet (DAY 1)

2011-09-19T06:30:00.000-07:00

BOOOOOOOOOO! I AM BACK! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!! actually.. i just woke up 3 hours ago~ CAUSE FOR THE PAST 3 DAYS I WAS HAVING CHALETTTTTTTTTTT~ SO FUN!! :D well.. during the first day, we carried so many things there lor! its like as if we're going to camping sia!! HAHA! then James bought Koi for us~ and MY ICECREAM MELT BY THE TIME I DRANK IT! :( HAHAHA! and when we reached, we sat and waited for that irritating shuttle bus for like 30+ min and ended up, we went to take public bus.. HAHAHA! then when we wanted to go into our room, IT WAS SO INSIDE CAN?! then we walk one round, just to find that irritating room luh! HAHAH!! but anyway~ once we reached, we were so tired!! then we BAN WU ZI! HAHA! cause we didnt like the way the bed was placed, so we go and transfer~ ahahaha!! after that we went to eat 'lunch' cause 4+ liao~ actually only me and Xueer went to eat~ haha!! then when we went back, we played mahjong!! SO IRRITATING cause we had to play on the bed!! no table mah.. TABLE EXPENSIVE!! haha!! after that they all went dinner~ and i stayed in the room.. cause I LAZY TO GO OUT! :x then hor.. i watched this dont know what show also.. THEN WHEN THEY COME BACK THEY KNOCK THE DOOR LIKE AS IF OUTSIDE GOT MONSTER SIA! HAHAHAHA! so retarded.. after that, we played our 7 people dai di!! (: MAOMAO STYLE~ ♥ SUDDENLY! GOT COCKROACH!!!!! HAHAAHAH! DAMN RETARDED SIA WE ALL! CATCHING ONE RETARDED COCKROACH! HAHAHAHA! THEN AFTER THAT WE WENT FOR OUR NIGHTWALK! damn dark luh!! then we walk walk walk walk walk .. and we turned back liao~ then we bathed and ate our CUP NOODLES! :D I tell you ah.. my TOM YAM SO SPICY! D: then i exchanged with Von's one~ cause hers not as spicy.. AHAHAHAHAHAH! after that we watched the uninvited.. THEN HOR! EVERYONE SLEPT! HAHA! cause the first part of the show abit boring.. HAHAAHHAAH! only left me and Si Hao.. we watched finish then go sleep liao~ kekekeke~ THIS IS OUR FIRST DAY OF CHALET! HAHAHAHAHA!

My Idol~ ♥

2011-08-25T04:14:00.001-07:00

YAY! Back with another post! and Shin is officially my idol le!! MUAHAHAHAHA! he is damn cute and retarded.. SO CONTRAST THE FACE CAN? HAHA! I think I am becoming a fangirl already! OMG! haha!! One day before Natsu Matsuri he actually say cannot come one leh!! Then i so emo.. BUT HE CAME ON THAT DAY! THEN I DAMN HIGH! WOOOOOO~ but then.. I DONT DARE TO TALK TO HIM! I THINK I AM A FAIL FAN! HAHAHA! but so scary.. DAMN STRESS TO EVEN LOOK AT HIM LOR! OMGGGGGG! hahahaha!! well.. if it was Kame.. MOST PROBABLY I'LL ALSO DO THAT! HAHA! SO SCARY! ~.~ and before he go.. HE PAT ME! OMG! THE BEST THING THAT CAN HAPPEN TO A FANGIRL! HAHAHA! DAMN FUNNY! i still say dont want to wash hair! HAHAH! anywayy~ I DECIDED TO BE STALKER AND PUT HIS PICTURE AS MY MSN DP! ♥ SO COOL! HAHA! ok luh~ ENOUGH FANGIRLING~ kekekeke~ That's my idol~ ♥

2011-07-24T20:40:00.000-07:00

so tired, so bored, so.. i dont even know how to say..
sometimes i think i just want to like NOT THINK!
D: i dont like to think.. i dont want to think..
but i just cant stop thinking.. so irritating..

why quarrel over stuffs like that? it doesnt mean anything..
everyone is equal, and everyone has a meaning for what they do..
but what if you just dont understand the person?
what if the person thinking and your thinking is different?

really so irritating luh..
when someone talks to me, i still try to smile..
even when i'm feeling down or sad..
because.. i dont want that person who did nothing to me,
feel like its his/her fault..

seriously.. i just want to shut myself out from the world
and stay at home everyday.. i dont really care
i dont want to have anything, i dont want to have anything at all
i dont want to have friends with an attitude that makes me feel like its my fault
i didnt do anything to you

people say that everyone's existance mean something in your life
what if everyone's existance is actually something extra,
you can live without anyone, but when you see someone laughing with someone,
you will feel envious.. but when you see someone quarrelling,
you are glad that you have no friends..

but seriously.. do you even know what friends are?
friends are not for you to make use of,
friends are there to make you smile..
friends are people you can depend on when you feel down
but what if they cant let you?
they are still your friends for god's sake

its not like you owe them or they owe you
making my friends happy, i like doing that..
but what if they make me feel irritated or angry?
i dont really care.. I mean..
They are after all still my friends..

I remembered in Primary School..
i fought with my friend over some misunderstandings..
but.. the next day, i would always talk to her..
because.. she's my friend..
i cant possibly be angry at her forever..

it hurts to hate someone,
thinking about how that person is better than you
or has more things than you..

just think about it.. if you didnt hate that person
you will have an extra friend
whom you can share your thoughts and feelings with
isnt that nice?

rather than hating someone for having what you dont have..
and not realising that you have things that they do not have..
what if their life is so much more unfortunate than yours
everyone is equal.. so it means that when they have something,
they have to lose something as well.

did you know.. there are people who are smart and brilliant
and people go around saying that they hate them..
they might be suffering from an illness that might kill them anytime..

as for people who look beautiful..
they might look beautiful, but they have a deficiency..
i have a few very pretty friends..
but one is deaf, another has a stutter..

Seriously.. DIFFERENT PEOPLE ARE DIFFERENT IN WAYS!
I AM DIFFERENT FROM ALL THE OTHER GIRLS IN THE WORLD
BUT I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE IF PEOPLE CALL ME NAMES
OR EVEN IF THEY MAKE USE OF ME TO DO SOMETHING GOOD FOR THEM..
I DONT CARE OKAY?! they are my friends..

so.. when you do something to my friend..
i will go all out to know your reason
because i know.. that there will be a reason for everything you do..
sometimes.. its frustrating..
because some people just dont listen..
dont they?

Codessssss

2011-07-24T03:51:00.000-07:00

I AM GOING TO FAINT SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON! SO MANY CODES! NOT GOING TO HAVE ENOUGH SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP! D: i want Saturday to come soon.. So that I can see all the SKY PEEPS! although i already saw Yi Lei, Ad and Alisa~ I WANT TO SEE EVERYONEEE! EVEN EX-STAFFS!! I HOPE MY CODES CAN FINISH ON TIME! THEN IF THEY SAY WANT TO GO SING SONG CAN GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! kekeke~ i wish only luh~ I WANT TO SEE XAVIER BOEY!! SO MANY YEARS NEVER SEEEEEE HIM ALREADYYYYYYY!! always so busy that guy.. kekeke.. HOPEFULLY EVERYONE'S COMING ON SAT!! (:

Harry Potter Ends!!

2011-07-21T08:32:00.000-07:00

Just like my title said.. HARRY POTTER HAS ENDED!! kekeke.. Today.. I WOKE UP AT 9.30 WHEN LESSON START AT 9.15!! SO FAIL RIGHT! haha~ anyway.. after school.. I MET UP WITH BRANDON AND JAZREEL GO WATCH HARRY POTTER!! So funny.. first we ate mac.. then i told Jaz it was Brandon's birthday tomorrow! then she was SHOCKED! haha! then later we go WATCH THE MOVIE! and me and Jaz planned to buy a cake.. SO FUNNY! after the movie, me and Jaz say go toilet! then we go, and when Brandon went in Jaz ESCAPED! HAHAH! after that I went out.. then I told Brandon to wait.. CAUSE JAZ AND HER MAKEUP! HAHAHA! really funny.. later i went to arcade.. I TOLD HIM THAT I CANNOT STAND STILL! FUNNY SIA! HAHAHA! after that JAZ CALLED ME! SHE SAID NO CAKE! D: AND WE WERE DECIDING DAMN LONG! AND ENDED UP BUYING THE SWENSENS ONE! SO BIG SIA! DAMN FUNNY!! After that, I told Brandon go down with me.. WE GO DOWN LIAO! THE CAKE STILL NOT DONE! SO RETARDED! HAHAHA! After that I WAS LIKE OMG! HOW HOW HOW! then i told him that I CANNOT FIND JAZ! HAHAHA! when she was actually hiding at Swensens.. SERIOUSLY SIA! 5MINS!! then after that this girl SEEMED like Brandon's fangirl.. DAMN FUNNY SIA! She still said she wanted a piece of our cake! HAHA! After that we give her lor!! HAHA! I STILL REMEMBER! WHEN WE COULD NOT FIND JAZ, HE SAID MAYBE SHE GO MAKE UP SOME MORE! HAHAHAHA! FUNNY SIA!! AFTER THAT GO HOME LE! CAUSE THEY 2 HAVE UT! awwwww~ OKAY LUH!! THEN WE GO HOME!

BIRTHDAY BOY!! kekeke~

I HATE YOU!

2011-07-18T09:39:00.000-07:00

SERIOUSLY! I think sooner or later, I'll start hating all the guys in this world.. I AM SO IRRITATED WITH YOU CAN?! EVEN YOUR PRESENCE MAKES ME WANT TO RUN AWAY! AND PLEASE JUST STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT STUFFS WHERE YOU THINK YOU'RE RIGHT! WHEN A RELATIONSHIP DOES NOT WORK OUT, BOTH PARTIES ARE IN THE WRONG!! PISSING ME OFF SIA! WANT TO PLAY GAME ALSO DONT FEEL LIKE! PEOPLE LIKE YOU MAKE ME HATE GUYS! SERIOUSLY! I HATE GUYS SO FREAKING MUCH NOW! D: I SWEAR I HATE YOU SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH! GOD! EVEN YOUR EX HATES YOU OKAY?! SHE FINDS YOU IRRITATING SO JUST STOP IT OKAY?! I ALREADY TOLD YOU THAT YOU ARE IRRITATING THAT'S WHY SHE LEFT YOU! AND YOU DIE DIE ALSO DONT WANT TO LISTEN! ITS NOT MY FAULT OKAY?!

2D GAME!!

2011-07-17T20:48:00.000-07:00

IN CLASS NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! copied finished all the codes from worksheet liao~ NOW SINGING IN CLASS! HAHAHAHA! Singing XIN BU LIAO QIN! (新不了情 this one..) WITH FANG XIN!! CAUSE SHE ON THE SONG ON REPEAT SO KEEP SINGING! HAHAHA! I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING WORKKKKKKKKKK! D: BUT I WILL DO! HAHAHAHAH! OKAY~ BYEBYE! I GO DO ENHANCEMENT LIAO~

Another day~

2011-07-16T06:58:00.001-07:00

its years since i posted here.. 2 years in fact!! I QUIT MY JOB AT MEIDI-YA ALREADY!! I feel sad.. no more Japanese guys during weekends.. :( FLASH BUILDER IS KILLING ME NOW! I still cannot import the dumb model.. AND WORSE OF ALL! MEETING ON TUESDAY! HOW?! I hope that person replies Jia Wen soon.. then dont need to so stress.. IT'S TIME FOR MAPLE NOW! cause I really dont feel like looking for the dumb piece of code already.. byebye~

W15J 1st OUTING!!

2009-06-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

YAY!!! Finally I'm updating our first class outing!! hehe.. I know I took ages but who cares.. at least I am finally posting about it!! Well.. It happened on the 16th May..

We met at Somerset MRT at 1.. I think.. hehe..
Then, there were only a few of us who arrived on time..
Well, so we waited..
When everyone came..
They were all commenting on the dress that I'm wearing..
That's because my "school uniform" was..
T shirt and jeans.. never a dress..

Darren was so damn irritating like usual.. haha..
While waiting for the rest..
Shane called.. and he wanted to come too..
So.. we went to buy the tickets first..
Later.. Some of us went to eat at LJS..
The rest.. dont know they go where lah..
BUT LATER!! they go ARCADE!!
Then they never tell us!! SO PLAY CHEAT ONE!!

haha.. anyway.. I ate 2 pcs chicken..
same as Neeza, Nat and Jaz..
I SWEAR we didnt plan to do that..
A while later, Juno arrived with Shane..
then we ate together.. (I know I'm not making sense..)

anyway.. After that.. we went to watch the movie..
It was uninvited.. Weird show with a weird twist..
But it was alright.. Nat was like sitting beside me..
And she was practically laughing like hell..
Then suddenly.. in the midst of the movie..
Darren shouted out.. NATHIYA WHERE ARE YOU?
haha.. he did that on purpose lor.. so bad sia..

After that.. some of them left..
While the rest walked around orchard..
BUSY CAMWHORING!!
haha.. then we wanted to take a picture of the whole class..
then this 2 cute ANG MOHS walked passed..
so we asked them to take the picture for us lor..
hah.. IT WAS FUN while it lasted..

LOVES W15J (2009)

Shane, Jaz, Nat and me at LJS

Me and Jaz

OUR CLASS!!

Arfin and me (FRONT VIEW)
(side view) cause dont know who take one..

Me, Jaz, Arfin, Nat and Neeza

Me and Darren

Guys in W15J

BOND

2009-05-18T08:15:00.000-07:00

No matter how much we consider the future,
No one can see the truth.
Something is blocking my blank mind,
It's just a mistake that I've been repeating.

It's okay for my steps to continue,
These hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging
That time, that place,
It will never disappear - this bond.

In time that flows,
I try not to lose anything.
Passing by,
We collided - true emotion
Permeated my heart,
Into warm desires
The miracle I requested
Came by chance.

Even when things couldn't stand still,
Admist the pain,
I saw the light,
Because we're bound together.
It's okay if you lied,
And it's okay to cry.
That time, that place,
It will never disappear - this bond.

ENFP - The Inspirer

2009-04-22T17:52:00.000-07:00

As an ENFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in primarily via your intuition. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit in with your personal value system.
ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others, more so than we see in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything. They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it.

ENFPs have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. They are good at most things which interest them. Project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. To onlookers, the ENFP may seem directionless and without purpose, but ENFPs are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. Everything that they do must be in line with their values. An ENFP needs to feel that they are living their lives as their true Self, walking in step with what they believe is right. They see meaning in everything, and are on a continuous quest to adapt their lives and values to achieve inner peace. They're constantly aware and somewhat fearful of losing touch with themselves. Since emotional excitement is usually an important part of the ENFP's life, and because they are focused on keeping "centered", the ENFP is usually an intense individual, with highly evolved values.

An ENFP needs to focus on following through with their projects. This can be a problem area for some of these individuals. Unlike other Extraverted types, ENFPs need time alone to center themselves, and make sure they are moving in a direction which is in sync with their values. ENFPs who remain centered will usually be quite successful at their endeavors. Others may fall into the habit of dropping a project when they become excited about a new possibility, and thus they never achieve the great accomplishments which they are capable of achieving.
Most ENFPs have great people skills. They are genuinely warm and interested in people, and place great importance on their inter-personal relationships. ENFPs almost always have a strong need to be liked. Sometimes, especially at a younger age, an ENFP will tend to be "gushy" and insincere, and generally "overdo" in an effort to win acceptance. However, once an ENFP has learned to balance their need to be true to themselves with their need for acceptance, they excel at bringing out the best in others, and are typically well-liked. They have an exceptional ability to intuitively understand a person after a very short period of time, and use their intuition and flexibility to relate to others on their own level.

Because ENFPs live in the world of exciting possibilities, the details of everyday life are seen as trivial drudgery. They place no importance on detailed, maintenance-type tasks, and will frequently remain oblivous to these types of concerns. When they do have to perform these tasks, they do not enjoy themselves. This is a challenging area of life for most ENFPs, and can be frustrating for ENFP's family members.

An ENFP who has "gone wrong" may be quite manipulative - and very good it. The gift of gab which they are blessed with makes it naturally easy for them to get what they want. Most ENFPs will not abuse their abilities, because that would not jive with their value systems.
ENFPs sometimes make serious errors in judgment. They have an amazing ability to intuitively perceive the truth about a person or situation, but when they apply judgment to their perception, they may jump to the wrong conclusions.

ENFPs who have not learned to follow through may have a difficult time remaining happy in marital relationships. Always seeing the possibilities of what could be, they may become bored with what actually is. The strong sense of values will keep many ENFPs dedicated to their relationships. However, ENFPs like a little excitement in their lives, and are best matched with individuals who are comfortable with change and new experiences.

Having an ENFP parent can be a fun-filled experience, but may be stressful at times for children with strong Sensing or Judging tendancies. Such children may see the ENFP parent as inconsistent and difficult to understand, as the children are pulled along in the whirlwind life of the ENFP. Sometimes the ENFP will want to be their child's best friend, and at other times they will play the parental authoritarian. But ENFPs are always consistent in their value systems, which they will impress on their children above all else, along with a basic joy of living.
ENFPs are basically happy people. They may become unhappy when they are confined to strict schedules or mundane tasks. Consequently, ENFPs work best in situations where they have a lot of flexibility, and where they can work with people and ideas. Many go into business for themselves. They have the ability to be quite productive with little supervision, as long as they are excited about what they're doing.

Because they are so alert and sensitive, constantly scanning their environments, ENFPs often suffer from muscle tension. They have a strong need to be independent, and resist being controlled or labelled. They need to maintain control over themselves, but they do not believe in controlling others. Their dislike of dependence and suppression extends to others as well as to themselves.

ENFPs are charming, ingenuous, risk-taking, sensitive, people-oriented individuals with capabilities ranging across a broad spectrum. They have many gifts which they will use to fulfill themselves and those near them, if they are able to remain centered and master the ability of following through.

Jungian functional preference ordering for ENFP:
Dominant: Extraverted Intuition
Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling
Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking
Inferior: Introverted Sensing

Requiem

2009-04-16T06:55:00.000-07:00

If wanting you would cause me, anguish…
Then let my heart wrench in pain…

If having you means death…
Then let me commit suicide…

If being with you would char my soul…
Then let the flames of hell blaze upon me…

If my restlessness would make you feel at ease…
Then let me be eternally weary…

If my agony would be your console…
Then let me suffer…

If my melancholy would be your bliss…
Then let my tears drown me…

…and…

If my blood would keep you alive…
Then let me bleed for you…

Because without you…
My life would mean nothing…

…I love you…

1582

2009-04-11T20:06:00.000-07:00

Controlled all the way to the fingertips
Becoming insanely numb
The pressure builds inside my head
Where am I and why?
The light before my eyes disappears
Permanently sleeping, even if I die

Tempting
Complaining
Those red lips

The pounding of my numbing heart becomes disrupted

Stain yourself by drowning in that blood

Wide eyes facing blood
What do they reflect?
Please please hold me in those hands

I chew on my cheek and ponder
As the hands of the clock overlap
Hold my hands to my chest and beg
That you will always recover
Love...

Even this heart littered with wounds
Is watching you
Desire it is not
I know this unconsciously

Does the drug that heals your wound feel good?
We'll go crazy at Mizuko tomorrow
Or don't you want that?

Stain yourself by drowning in that blood

The dream and scattered stars
Which I saw with you day after day
I hold my hands to my chest and beg
That you will please please recover

What is this tender feeling?
It changes colour every secondF
orever and ever hold me in those hands
With love

Tempting
Complaining
Heal the wound

Wide eyes facing blood
What do they reflect?
Please please hold me in those hands

I chew on my cheek and ponder
As the hands of the clock overlap
I hold my hands to my chest and beg
That you will always recover

The dream and scattered stars
Which I saw with you day after day
I hold my hands to my chest and beg
That you will please please recover

What is this tender feeling?
It changes colour every second
Forever and ever hold me in those hands
With love

On Your Mind ~ please come back to me

2009-03-11T18:57:00.000-07:00

Like you were meant to, you were there
You were too close, and I never told you that you’re important, yet you were there
Always, when you are about to say something,
you sink into silence and cast your eyes downwards
Please come back to me
That time will no longer come back
Can no longer find another to love as much
I can’t forget you
Who are you being held by as you fall asleep tonight?
Still, you are dear to me
It has been a long time since I am with my friends
The same faces, the same place
But one thing, you are not here
Please come back to me
That time will no longer come back
A season that dazzling will not appear a second time
I can’t forget you
Who are you being held by as you fall asleep tonight?
And what would you be praying for?
That station, that platform
I have a feeling that I saw you
Please come back to me
That time will no longer come back
Can no longer find another to love as much
I can’t forget you
Who are you being held by as you fall asleep tonight?
Still, I am in love with you

2009-01-16T08:06:00.001-08:00

ICESKATING RULES!!!!!!!!!!! hehe..

went iceskating on wednesday.. 14 Jan..

2 days after collecting results..

so.. lets talk about the day i collect results..

the talk was so..... boring lah..

but i very guai one got listen..

plus message a few people..

to tell them the talk is boring.. hehe..

then later... take results..

AH!!!!!!!!!! 16 for L1R4..

Satisfied enough lah.. hehe..

then my parents were proud..

and i got to eat SWENSENS!! YAY!!

then went to watch redcliff 2..

IT'S NICE!! I like the fire part only..

okay lah.. and the turtle part.. hehe..

later went home to sleep..

okay.. then on WEDNESDAY!!!!

I AM A BUSY PERSON!!!

hehe.. not really lah.. only on that day lor..

cause when i woke up...

i had to do all the housework..

and finished around 2 30..

then i went downstairs to eat..

and rushed to K-Garden for important business..

(anybody want go PM me ah.. hehe)

ahem.. anyway.. i keep rushing and rushing..

and i thought i'll be late to meet up..

THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I REACHED KALLANG AT 5!!

and i was like HUH?! 5?!

it's like so freaking early..

cause we were meeting at 5.45..

haha.. so i stayed at the platform..

then played my HP till 5.30..

my sis arrived later..

then we went out of the mrt station..

then!! it was so..... boring...

so i walked around the notice boards..

for like 5 times..

then went 7-11 to buy coffee to drink..

then i walked around the board again..

for like about 2 times..

then Shawn and Wilson arrived..

still need to wait for Pris..

(yep.. the love of my life)

so the two guys went to play their PSP..

i was still walking around the boards..

then i spotted her.. and was like damn high..

hehe.. then later went to sit bus 11..

we went to Kallang Leisure Park..

met Isabel there.. hehe..

then since Pris was hungry..

we went to eat first..

me, Isabel and Wilson didn't eat..

cause i wasn't hungry..

Isabel just ate..

and Wilson ate at 3..

SO!! by the time "we" finished eating..

it was already 7 something..

then we went to iceskate..

haha.. we played catching..

i was like going to catch Wilson..

then he fell!! haha.. so funny..

cause he was like holding the side..

but his skates didn't stop so he fell..

then later decided not to play liao..

cause a bit boring.. so.. just skate around lor..

hehe.. later.. played catching again..

then Shawn was beside Wilson..

I caught Shawn.. since he's closer..

then i ran away..

in the end Shawn catch Wilson..

then they were like catching each other..

haha.. it was so funny.. looked so gay..

they finally stopped when one auntie scolded them..

she was like.. you all how old still playing here..

then we stopped playing catching liao..

later.. around 9 something..

we stopped iceskating and went to play arcade..

hehe.. Girls VS Guys.. foosball..

and the guys lost..

girls rule!! hehe..

later went to play photo hunt..

then it ended so early..

so we decided to play something else..

then the machine was spoilt!!

i was like hitting it..

but there was no response..

cheat money only..

anyway.. after that..

we went to the back of the stadium..

it was so peaceful and calm..

we could see the singapore flyer from there..

it's a romantic place if you go with your lover..

or if you wanna tell ghost stories..

Pris told her story about the game she played..

and later Wilson turn on the video.. this video..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oh87njiWTmw

and she was like asking him to off it..

haha.. then we just sat in the silence..

enjoying the cool breeze..

then later reached home at around 12..

we still talked on skype..

later went to sleep.. hehe..

Iceskating RULES..

dont deny this fact.. hehe..

haha.. the girl was like looking at the two guys in a weird way..
Wilson.. Look at camera lah..

The best picture out of the 3..
they sat on the ice and it's like freezing..
haha..
play PSP also got same pose one.. haha..

2009-01-11T10:45:00.000-08:00

BBQ PICTURES!!

Shawn cooking..

Isaac cooking..
and talking..
on the phone..

Guys eating..

AHH!! FIRE!!
hehe..

GUYS AT WORK!

I didn't put any pics of girls..
cause the girls took the picture..
This are the pics for the BBQ!!
haha.. no pics during the movie outing..
cause.. no camera.. hehe..
anyways.. we still had fun!!

2009-01-11T09:52:00.000-08:00

MONDAY (5th Jan)
Well, we had BBQ.. but first..
I was at home.. slacking.. hehe..
then later i wait..
until my sis reached home..
then we went to Tanah Merah..
To sit the shuttle bus..

Then waited till around 6..
then Jia Wen's friends arrived..
later.. Jia Wen's friend started the fire..
practically just slacking.. hehe..

later the guys went to cook the food..
then the girls slacked.. hehe..
haha.. took many pictures..
we still watched The Mummy!
and.. The Mummy returns..
And.. Little Nonya..

oh.. and found out..
the show that we watched on Sunday..
was Licensed To Wed..

anyway.. after that..
played cheat for a few times..
then played dai di..
and Wilson was supposed to do forfeit..
but he ran away.. haha..

so we thought.. next time then do..
anyway.. that's the end.. haha..
but still had lots of fun!!

the next time we met was on the 9th..
which is like.. 2, 3 days ago..
not really all of us went..
only me.. Pris.. and Wilson..
went to watch yesman..

well in the morning..
went for the SP openhouse..
and went to watch the style factor..
left SP at around 5.15..
then met them at plaza sing..

later went to Ichiban..
then halfway.. got a call..
then must buy bermudas..
so i bought it.. and it costed $22!

haha.. after that still have time..
so we went to arcade..
after that went to watch the show..
then after that, still had tokens left..
so went to play more arcade..
went home later and reached at 12..
well.. i had fun!!

2009-01-08T08:44:00.000-08:00

Pictures for SUNDAY!!

The couple!!

Jia Wen's friends..

Jia Wen and Pris..

Cut cake!!

PRIS!!!!!!!!!!

(MUACKS!!)

Gerald and Jia Wen

OOH..

CHOCO FONDUE..

PPL WHO WENT BOWLING!!

(can see me?? hehe..)

Jia Wen's smile..

THE BUFFET!!

hehe..

everyone's hungry..

2009-01-06T21:03:00.000-08:00

SUNDAY...
Jia Wen's birthday party!! hehe.. met lots of new friends!!

like.. PRIS!!(the love of my life.. haha)

and Isabel, Rina, and many more girls..

can't remember all..

then the guys are..

Shawn, Nico, Wilson, Gerald, Daniel, Aaron..

and the rest of the guys..

i dont know their names.. heh..

Then my childhood friends..

Jia Wen is counted.. hehe..

+ Li Wen, Feng Yuan, Hui Ting,

Hui Yi, Matthias, Jacob, Thaddius, Jun Hui..

and all our parents!!

hehe.. ok.. end of introduction.. now...

comes the boring part..

when we arrived at around 2 45,

Jun Hui was already there with his parents...
They arrived at 2 and were playing cards..

Since my dad came home from Japan on Saturday..

We went to visit my grandmother first..

since she missed him alot..

then my sisters and I went to Tanah Merah..

My parents went home though.. they joined later..

Then we were like saying..

the shuttle bus at bus stop..

luckily, we saw Jia Wen..

then she told us the bus was at the taxi stand..

so lucky.. haha..

then when we arrived.. we were stranded outside..

cause Jia Wen's mother have not taken the key..

then when we got in.. we watched a show..

I forgot what show it was called..

but it is so funny.. and kinda nice..

in the midst of the show..

all of Jia Wen's friends poured in..

then I was like so into the show,

i didn't join them playing Cheat..

If anybody knows what that is..

so i continued watching..

then there were 2 of my father's friend's daughter..

they wanted to go playground..

and well.. nobody wanted to bring them go..

so i bring.. since everybody was having fun..

later when we went back to the chalet,

the show already ended..

so i went out to play cheat too..

hehe.. but since their game hasn't ended,

I waited.. and...

Shawn is like the pro cheater lah..

then Wilson is like very funny lor..

cause at first he no card liao..

then he dont know what to do..

so he ask Nico.. then Nico was like..

can cheat one.. just put any card and lie!!

haha.. yup.. so practically..

they played till the buffet came in..

my parents arrived.. haha..

and my father went to rent MAMMA MIA!

cause he said he watched it in Japan..

and it was nice to watch..

then later Li Wen, Matthias,

Jun Hui and Jacob played Mahjong..

but Jacob didn't know how to play..

so.. Wilson was like..

my master help you..

then Shawn came and taught Jacob how to play..

and he is damn pro lah..

all the combinations come out..

then.. later.. we all went bowling..

god.. i was like missing everything lah..

haha.. then Wilson's name.. was PIG!

Nico put one.. then Shawn is SG..

Then i called him Singapore.. haha..

After playing.. we took photos..

and my sisters and i were like escaping lah..

then in the end.. i kena caught..

so take picture lor.. hehe..

Then we all went back to cut cake..

After that played cheat again..

but around 10 while playing halfway..

the taxi arrived liao..

so we didn't finish the game..

And i made many friends..

Then Monday had BBQ..

but i think i not lazy then talk lah..

2008-12-29T10:39:00.000-08:00

YO!!!!! UPDATING AGAIN!! FINALLY!! hehe..

It's like 3 months since i typed here..

Like as if i always update like that.. haha..

Haiz.... last time.. it's about Kame!! now..

It's gonna be about.. My Birthday and Christmas!!
Although both ended days ago.. hehe..

I LOVE MY BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!! hehe..

Well on my birthday, I wanted to go watch Twilight..

BUT.. IN THE END CANCELED!! haiz..

i ended up at home wrapping christmas presents for little children!!

hehe.. it was worth it =) later.. I WENT TO SWENSENS!! hehe..

which is why the wrapping presents was worth it.. haha..

then.. went to arcade and played a few games before going home..
As for christmas.. WE HAD BBQ!! and it was awesome!!

hehe.. We went badminton at 3.. but i only played for a while..

And we all ended up snacking.. hehe..

everything was fun while it lasted..

AS FOR TODAY!!! I WENT TO K-GARDEN!!!

hehe.. like as if that's amazing.. since i'm practically the owner's kid..

haha.. and my father's business partner went there with her grandchild..

AND HE IS SO SO SO SO SO CUTE!!! hehe..

At first.. he was like so afraid then slowly he started talking..

then i carried him.. and he was like going.. DOG!! DOG!!

and since there was a pet shop beside, i brought him to see the dogs!!

And the doggies are cute!!! hehe..

later he got bored and i brought him back to k-garden..

then it was time for him to go home.. i felt sad.. haha..

then i passed him back to his maid..

but he was so sad and was practically clinging onto me..

so i carried him longer and passed him back..

then he started crying.. OMG!! then i carried him again..

and he finally calmed down and went home..

accepting his fate.. hehe.. someday i'll abduct him!!

MUAHAHAHAHA!! just joking..

later somebody come kill me then i die!!

THEN!!! I'm gonna talk about KAME!!!

hehe.. HE'S CUTE!!!!!! HE WAS ON TV TODAY!!

but i missed.. haiz.. he was playing baseball..

well.. sacrifices have to be made sometimes..

but still... I KNOW HE'S CUTE!! hehe..

going through all the old videos.. i found out...

he hasn't changed one bit!!! haha.. just the way I like him..

hehe.. okay lah.. enough of him.. i'm always talking about him..

now.. some pictures..

This.. is baby KAZUYA!! So cute!!

I'm jealous of that girl...My KATTUN notepad.. hehe..CHOCOLATE!!!! CRUNKY!! BEST IN THE WORLD!!
Last but not least.. Something I got for christmas..
To ALL people out there!! HAVE A WHITE CHRISTMAS!! (unless you're staying near the equator.. like me.. T.T)

Thinking about my turtle..

2008-09-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

Gosh.. it's been a millenium since i posted here...

Hehe.. a bit random..

Everyday is just the same old thing..

All that I can think about in this life is him.. my turtle..

His smile is LOVE!! and more LOVE!!

He's so cute.. that time when he met usher, he spoke in english..

"Kamenashi is english turtle." that was just cute!
Then, this irritating guy knew that usher was there..

So he went in to disturb.. That guy was so irritating..

First he wanted an autograph..

Usher said okay, and my turtle was like..

"Wait a minute!! Even I don't even have it yet!!"

His expression was just priceless..

Later, that guy went out and usher said..

"Does he always do this?"

My turtle said

"Yeah.."
Then they continued their conversation..

Later, that irritating guy came in again and asked to take a picture..

Then usher said okay again..
My turtle was so shocked and he immediately replied..

"There's no one here to take picture except my pet turtle."

He's just so so so so so adorable!!

Later he got forced to take their picture..

The picture he took was like only of usher..

When I saw the picture, that irritating man was cut off..

Good job Kame!! He's just so CUTE!!

Later usher asked if that man was going to go in again..

"I don't know." His accent is precious!!

Now.. let's talk about doggies..

He wants a chihuahua .. although he has Ran-chan..

Because.. he loves doggies!! and he looks like the chihuahua..

So cute!! I'm going crazy about him and doggies..

Oh, and babies too!! I'll post a picture...

A picture of cute Kame!!

Carrying a cute baby!!

Your voice and smile

2008-06-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

Even with this much true love
You continued to sing to me
I won't forget anything about you
Even if I was to be born again

I misunderstood
And thought I was living alone
I was offered warmth
But I made you sad, didn't I?

Although I tried to depend on you
Only when it was convenient
You were always my supporter
And you gave me your smile

I can't just talk about memories
The bond will never disappear
For eternity

Have I became your pride?
Although I was too embarassed to ask
That's what I have always wanted to be

A smile that melts the heart
There's nothing else that I would want to see more
For eternity

There's no love that can't extend
You kindly told me that
I will find your voice
Even if I was to be born again

2008-06-24T06:30:00.000-07:00

It's not only the memories; our bond will never fade, for eternity

Always (A Song For Love)

2008-06-20T20:16:00.000-07:00

There's something I want you to know
So you don't forget the pain of that other day
Hum this, in the cold wintery wind
A gentle melody that dwells in the sadness
Gather up all the fragments of dreams thoughout the world
I'm always thinking of you
Yes, so we'll always open our arms wide
Not so we can fight and injure others
Our arms will embrace someone
They're there to warm up other people
I want you to remember
Even on the nights when snowflakes dance down
Thousands of sentiments
Shine on tomorrow's world, awaiting spring
Just be yourself, look up and see
I'm always thinking of you
No one can walk without feeling unsure
Keep dreaming, hold hands, smile
Yes, so we'll light a flame in our hearts
To undo the doors which have been frozen
Your eyes are a path to the future
They're there to give you somewhere to aim for
I've been waiting, I've been praying
For someone like you to come
I've been lying, self denying
Yes, so we'll always open our arms wide
To let our wishes reach to the heavens
Our arms were created
For us to hold onto our hopes and dreams
Here I go
I'm always thinking of you
Yes, I will always sing a song for love

Our Story ~ Prologue

2008-06-01T05:14:00.000-07:00

I want to be feeling you just a little more like this
The wet wind that blew through the guardrail
I like over my right shoulder, you quietly
Wipe your wet cheek and stand up
Our story begins from here
Our story of tomorrow, each chapter
Our story, the two of us setting out
It’s not good-bye, that’s what I told myself
It was nonsense written on a blank page
But you colored it with your existence
The trace of the last kiss we left is hot
Your hand shakes, it’s only you that I’ve come to love
Our story, the one and only
A new story, let’s engrave it and go
Our story, even if we are separated
I’ll be embracing you in my memory
Wow, should we be able to do it
I’ll take you away with me…I’m sorry
I’ll come get you without fail
Our story begins from here
Our story of tomorrow, don’t look back
I won’t forget that voice, I won’t forget that smile
I won’t forget the moments we had together
In the shifting future
I just want you to say you love me

lovejuice/w/o notice??

2008-05-19T02:33:00.000-07:00

LOVE JUICE..

Don't know where you're from
Never seen you around
But that don't mean nothing to me
Just want a taste of that...
Drop that shit life...
She stood there waiting alone
Green eyes her shoulder exposed
Smiling and biting her straw
She gave me one look, I froze
Her sexy inviting eyes
My hands on her hips as we grind
She whispered in an accent unknown
Just let go, let the music take control
Move your body, nothing crazy
So take it slow, there's so many things I want you to know
I ain't leaving you, cuz I'm yours tonight"
I can tell you want me too
And every time I think of you
That luscious drink your lips produce
I can taste that sweet LOVEJUICE
"Oh","Oh","More","Slow"
Classy like none of these hoes
Pretty little frame under her clothes
Those lips as red as a rose
Vibing to the beat from the Boze
Don't rush the night is still young
Take it to the room and sex things up
I can see you call out my name, saying
"Dont stop, more" I'm trying to see how your lips feel
All we need is body language
And now I know, I'm falling for you and I just can't lie
I won't go nowhere cuz I'm your man tonight
See, I've been all around the world but I ain't seen nothing
And now I got four minutes to take you back, girl we can be something

W/o Notice??

"Nice to meet you", at that moment, something echoed somewhere inside me
That was, soon after that, just like that, then as time goes by
I close my eyes, and ask my heart Is it LOVE♥?
It came to me without notice
Look at me, my girl, when we put our hands together
Find something fluttering inside me, I wish just a little bit...
Don't be short, my girl, take away that 'something'
At once, hurry, come close to me,
Sign, that's not I want, it's you I want♥, but
The night will end soon, hurry up, I need to tell you
I sweat, you stimulate my body, your eyes, stay deep in my mind
Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, think, about you,
thinking, I am, without notice

DUES: Don't U Ever Stop!!

2008-05-06T18:31:00.000-07:00

No one knows this story, I´ll tell you it slowly
I´m not good at saying it, but you are not alone.

Unforgetable feelings, this confusion..
I´ll embrace it all and leave.

The flower of you bloomed in the corner of this treacherous town.
Honestly, I really wanted a night that I felt you

Don´t you ever stop, you know it, don´t stop
Fate is digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
I was confused..admiring this town.

We´ll count the nights we spent here together
This is our final romance, so let´s look straight at it.

Don´t you ever stop.

I wanna tell u secrets.
A one-time-only party starts tonight
There´s nothing to lose, we can´t go back
We´ll risk it all - let show begin!

The flower of you is fluttering in the back alley of hesitation
Not saying what you know is just void and pointless.

Don´t you ever stop, you know it, don´t stop
Fate is digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
from the day we set out

Don´t you ever stop

Are you ready?
Hell yeah!!

Don´t you ever stop, you know it, don´t stop
Fate is digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
from the day we set out

Don´t you ever stop.... STOP!

Into Mine

2008-05-02T07:59:00.000-07:00

I don’t know really what to write.
I miss you. Here, sitting here, I miss the warmth of your body,
the darkness of your aura, your alluring sound of your voice,
the stupid jokes you make that are not even funny, but I laugh inside anyway.
Do you remember how we first met?
I know it sounds clichéd, but it really does only seem like yesterday.
I miss you. I always will.
Wherever I may end up,
I know that deep down somewhere I will know of you and there will always be a part of me,
no matter how hidden that will miss you.
But you mustn’t miss me Kazu.
I have moved on and there is nothing you nor anyone could have done.
We are of two worlds, we knew that from the beginning.
We knew this end will come someday.
So don’t grieve for me.
I don’t want those tears for I have no regrets.
I will be smiling as I step out to the platform tomorrow.
I will be thinking of you right till the last moment.
Don’t cry for me. If I were given a chance to turn back time and do it over,
I would walk this path again.
Willingly and happily and without regret.
I will say goodbye because I want you to move on.
Knowing that I had been a part of you that once happened,
that we had once shared times together, good and bad, is enough for me.

Like you always sang..
Love, it looks like it will melt
Love, how deep can it be
Love, how painful it is
Love, how hot it is
Love, soon it will be enjoyable
Love, it looks like it will melt
Love, it drives people crazy,
Love, to me only
Love, tightly bonded,
Love, deeply
Love, won't be able to return the second time

There's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Sometimes love just ain't enough
I'm sorry for what I wrote
I didn't know the truth
I'm really sorry..

How I Forget

2008-04-29T22:55:00.000-07:00

I watched you from behind - your arms catching her in a deep embrace,
the soft lips that used to graze mine so lovingly were now on hers.
Everything broke apart since she stepped between us,
tearing us apart like that old photograph.

I've never felt more alone.
The moment you tore that photograph,
you tore off my smile - my whole life,
and my entire being.

If I could, I would shout it out to your face.
Why, Kazu? Why?

Watch me deal with this.
Watch me, watch me drown.
Watch me disappear in midst of everyone's laughter.
Watch me die with words from those lips I'm bewitched by.

Hitting the dance floor night after night;
Smoky disco lights spinning,
Mindlessly drinking,
Half-heartedly laughing,
Suggestively dancing ...
Waiting to be preyed on.

Take me home as you wish, whoever you are.
Do as you want, I'm all yours tonight -
Kiss me.
Claim me and,
Leave me.

He was kneeling down, picking up the glass pieces of the clockface that shattered upon the fall.
I remembered how he stayed up that whole night, glueing back the pieces one by one.

You fixed the clock.
What about my heart?

I hastily picked a set of clothes to wear and
put on the perfume that
he used to love sniffing from my neck.

If I ever think of you,
I know just what I need.

Kazu,
This is how I make myself forget.

Nothingness..

2008-03-13T08:23:00.000-07:00

Drowning, I’m falling.
This emptiness inside,
Forever calling.
The numbness won’t subside.

Two years I’ve watched snow
From crimson leaves
Into spring green flow,
But my eyes were deceived.

It’s winter everlasting now.
I’m imprisoned by
Your receding shadow.
I drown in the tears I cry.

The pain won’t subside.
My friend, my foe;
For two years I’ve cried.
What is Love, I do not know.

I hear Kizuna for 3 Years already!!!

たったひとつの恋

2008-02-26T09:40:00.000-08:00

People having problems are everywhere in this world..
I have always hated this place..
Except the fact that I get to see you..
But you are always so busy..
Even on your birthday..
You eat so little you might collapse..
I'm afraid to lose you..
You're fragile and everyone's forcing you..
Even when you wrote that love letter..
They had to let the whole world know..
I seriously hate this..
But it's your own choice to continue being the star of Japan..
You're not taking this well..I can see it..
Friends will always be by your side supporting you.. Even me..
But you just.. Nevermind..
It's no use telling everything when you don't even want to stop..
Are you only going to stop when you end up in hospital, depending on a machinery to live??
Well, you're dedicated.. I know..
But you're just stressing yourself out..
Doing what you feel is right might not be right..
People around you are hurt that you eat so little..
Rest whenever you can and stop thinking about work for once..
Treasure your life.. That time you had a long break and I know you tried..
But you are still not like how i first met you..
Cheerful, Happy, Smiling at everyone..
Now.. You've changed into someone I don't even know anymore..
Please just change back.. I want you to be happy always..
That song you wrote for me..
Always.. Remember it??
You said you'll always be with me..
And that you'll sing for me..
It was years ago.. But I still remembered that song..
It's so nice, that song you wrote and sang to me..
Although my Japanese is not that good, I know what you mean..
In that song you wrote for me, the letter you gave me..
Everything shows that you care about me..
But you're not caring about yourself..
It hurts inside.. Deep down inside..
My one and only love..

Our Double Destiny

2008-02-25T17:26:00.000-08:00

Dancing for you will be the last thing i will do..
Unless you request it..
Feeding you will be the second last thing i will do..
Unless you want it..
Cooking for you will be the third last thing i will do..
Unless you taste it..
Doing anything you will be the very first thing i will do..
Cause you're worth it..
Loving you will always be in the middle..
Cause i hold that hope that you will never leave..
Knowing that one day, you will have to leave..
So I kept it in a place where no single soul will suspect..
Deep down inside..
It is the place where I kept you..
So that no one will take you away..
So that the happiness will stay..
And we will be the pair..
That causes everyone despair..
Double Destiny...

うたいつずけるとき

2008-02-12T17:32:00.000-08:00

Lying down by the side of the road
Watching the drifting clouds
Wandering winds swaying the weeds
As though this empty me
Is merely something to be laughed at
Passing the seasons with a lack of expression
Just what could I trust?
Just who can I talk with?
With only outer appearances
Mundane futures are so trivial
By myself　spitting these out like this　everynight

The us here right now
Just what can we do?
Though we're not even prepared to get hurt
In these constantly repeating days
Wanting so much to know the answer, I'll
Continue to reach out my hand towards the distant sky
I sung during my childhood
That song spinning 'round and 'round
Yet I can't remember the next line
That time I had drawn
Far beyond that door
What kind of world stretches there?
Just what should I search for?
Just where should I head?
Tenderness and such
I had always thought of as a hindrance
Once and again trampling over your love
If we are to meet once again
Me, who's grown a little more mature
To be able to destroy this old rusted grief
Even if I can't see in front of me
Towards where that shining light is　I'll
Continue to push through the deep darkness today
The us here right now
Just what can we do?
Though we're not even prepared to get hurt
In these constantly repeating days
Wanting so much to know the answer, I'll
Continue to reach out my hand towards the distant sky today

Sad Song

2007-09-10T22:17:00.000-07:00

Why is it so quiet?
Even the light won't pierce through.
Flowers, smiles, and even love,
Are like a far off memory,
Right now.

With eyes shut,
I shed tears.
I knew they were things that shined.

And I..
Certainly knew..
They were warm, yet,
Till just now.

I'm shouting.
Even this voice,
Can't be heard, like the moon.

With eyes shut,
I'm lost on the road.
The torn map and even my heart,
Became cold.

Wounded,
I'm hit by the rain.
With only sadness and pain..
I continue to breathe.

夏の終わり

2007-08-24T08:41:00.000-07:00

The breakwater continues along the road
You walk a little way behind me just like a movie scene
The sky colours a sweet red like Grenadine
Let's stop on our way for just a little while and gaze at the sea

The sea breeze announces the end of Summer
It's only a very small amount but I feel lonely
I felt the presence of oncoming Autumn

Always and forever by your side
Let's live feeling the seasons
Slowly, without hurrying・・・

Even the round and fragile moon floating in the sky
Looks almost as if it regrets the departing of Summer
The hand I took and held tightly without speaking
You squeezed it tightly back
That's the sort of thing about you that
"I love"

Always and forever by your side
Let's live feeling the seasons
Slowly, without hurrying・・・

The sea breeze announces the end of Summer
It's only a very small amount but I feel lonely
I felt the presence of oncoming Autumn

Always and forever by your side
Sharing the tears and the smiles
Let's make memories together

Koki, Kazuya, Jin

2007-08-22T02:11:00.000-07:00

This is a so called coffin.. Just that it is standing.. There are people inside...

離さないで愛

2007-08-17T08:23:00.000-07:00

Don't let go of me with love
Hold on to me with love
Let me listen only to sweet songs
At your side I don't need to pretend to be strong
Dance softly embracing the night sky

Things which are born in the midst of pain
Will one day make you beautiful
I'll smoothly throw some words to you
A little dislike

Although its selfish
Because it started with a sudden speed
I feel insecure

Don't let go of me with love
Hold on to me with love
Let me listen only to sweet songs
At your side I don't need to pretend to be strong
Dance softly embracing the night sky
Make me more beautiful

Because I'm used to
Being distrustful
I shyly gazed at your back
I'd like to walk In the midst of your pure eyes

In this world your warmth
Is the one and only place
Where I can entrust my body

No straying with love
No decoration with love
Spilling from the lips: I love you
As long as I have this sound
I can go on living
Dance softly embracing the night sky
Break me with more of your kisses

Don't let go of me with love
Hold on to me with love
Let me listen only to sweet songs

僕らの街で

2007-08-13T23:04:00.000-07:00

Having lived this time in this small town
We met on that bright summer's day
We were always looking towards tomorrow
As if we were stretching slightly

After a while this place where I am with you
Somehow at sometime became the world I am living in
The day I first found you the piercing blue sky
Was just continuing forever

At some point a day while come
When we look back
On pale regrets and someone's tears
Holding our breath for the unseen future
But even so we are living the present now

Will we get to go close to our dreams some day?
But it seems that that is something still far ahead
We seem to be hurrying far too much
So much that we could even forget our precious things

We want to believe in us now
I want to believe in myself of the present now
Probably no one will accept us at all
Probably no one will try to understand us at all

Although we searched and searched and didn't find it
There must be things which are real out there somewhere
Miserable thoughts disappeared in your smile
The town is now becoming dusky twilight
And enveloping us

Will we get to go close to our dreams some day?
But it seems that that is something still far ahead
The day I first found you the piercing blue sky
Was just continuing forever

2007-04-03T22:49:00.000-07:00

As the days pass, we've lost sight of things.When you grab my hand, later, don't just simply let go of it.

2007-04-02T22:49:00.000-07:00

Surely, anyone at any given time...Takes along some sadnesses and weaknesses.And even if we fall, we have the strength to stand back up.Certainly, for every tear cried there is a smile waiting.